crap

one more email to add to the list. I opened a new yahoo account and forgot to change the primary email. So if you get something from bonn_eeee it's me.

Just a quick update (who noticed I didn't use spell check?)

Christmas was good! The J's were ecstatic on Christmas morning and we had J's family over for dinner.

J finally went back to work and I haven't seen him since. He's got really weird shifts and they have to work 10 hour days (this was required in MS too)

Things have smoothed out at work but I think that's because the tension causer is on a two week vacation.

This will be my second three day weekend in a row and it's so nice to work only 4 days. Next week I took two days of PTO because I couldn't get a sitter for Little j. I'm just glad that 10 days only turned into two.

We have a play date at two and we're gonna go to the movies :) I am not sure what we'll go see.

is it really December??

This is what we did today:






I have heard it is unseasonably warm all over the US. But a girl from ohio will never get used to beautiful sunny skies and seventy degree days.......

At my wit's end

Work? I could be jobless soon. I am so over the crap. I was there until 7:30 on Friday. Can you imagine what they are going to say when they see my timecard? I never imagined that I would want to quit this job. Especially when I haven't even been there a year.

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Little J had a perfect week and he told me he's learned how to be good now. YAY!

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I bought J a gift from Home Depot and just realized I coulda got 1000 points through mypoints had I gone to their website first. DAMN!

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I have to find a sitter for this thurs. And fri. UH-OH. But I think J will close so really I only need someone from 3pm til I get off work. That's only about 4 hours total. I think my friend from work will do it for me. I had asked her previously to watch him over his entire break. She couldn't because she would have her sister's kids too so I am hoping she will say yes. Oh crap. Work party is on Thursday. I'll only stay until 5:30 that just adds an extra hour......

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I ought to get dressed now. We have NO food and I can't go to publix like this....

I need a vacation

The last couple of days have been rough. So awful in fact that I questioned the necessity of my job. The stress it's creating just isn't worth it. Today was a little better but not much. I'll be grateful for the weekend and hopefully things will get back on track next week.

The party went well. Lots of food! We had a good time and the new guy stayed long after all the "mom's" went home. He really is a sweet kid so I didn't mind that much. I thought it was funny.

James pictures came out SO cute, but I don't have my scanner hooked up. Unlike all the other crazy mom's in there I wasn't up to spending $150 or more on photos. Gosh people go nuts at Christmas! The photographer we had was fantastic until she realized she wasn't going to be able to sell me anything besides the $10 package no matter what she said. She got a little snippy but that's ok.

I bought J a food processor for Christmas. I just couldn't think of anything else. And yes that sucker cost just as much as the playstation that I have been avoiding. I am not sure he'll want the FP but he can always return it. I have no idea what he bought me. I do know that he has spent a lot of money on himself. I understand he needs new work clothes but it seems like he has spent an awful lot. It's not like he had to start over either. He has a whole closet full.

I have a cake to ice and I really don't feel like it......

We skipped karate

And J will be mad, but my warm toasty bed is way better then being around way to many wild kids early in the morning. Everyone knows how I loathe Sat. classes, so today I decided not to go.


Yesterday we went to the mall after work. I wanted to do some shopping but as we walked by the play place I noticed a friend from work. She had met her husband and the kids right after work. We hung out with them and J had a good time playing. We all went to the food court for dinner and then headed home. We had been there for 2 hours and done no shopping! We'll go back today and try again.

They are having a Polar Express party at school so I had to buy J some PJ's and it's a good thing I did, because it has been VERY cold here at night. J loves his new cars jammies and we're going to buy some matching slippers today.

He only had one good day this week. He notebook says "disruptive" I guess it's time for a p-t conference. His teacher is very nice and would call me if she thought it was a huge issue (like the tantrums) She hasn't yet but I would like to know if maybe he is with one or two other kids that are being disruptive and they could be separated, among other things. I make him write a new rule each day about 30 times, hoping it might help.


We have xmas pictures on Wednesday. Child only. The place we are going is great, but when Darlene went she overheard that they were booked solid. I called and all I could get was a 3pm. Yep I am leaving work early for pictures, lol. I did not tell them what my appointment was actually for!

TIme to get moving. I have a lot to do today!

I swear!

Every time I find someone I actually like they send them away. Two of my favorites are being sent to "help" another branch. Usually that means they aren't coming back. I really hope they do. My other favorite is "retiring" she has worked for the bank for 15 years and can't take the crap anymore (she's not old either) That leaves me with one person I truly like. One person that drives me crazy, one person I tolerate and one I want to fire. (even though I don't have the authority) Not good. Not good at all. But besides that everything is fine.

J decided to go nuts and buy all sorts of toys for the kid, even after we agreed not to buy anymore (since he has so many already). I made him take them all back. I think the only reason he did was because J had three bad days at school and doesn't really deserve a truck load of gifts.

I am having a Christmas party on Monday. Yeah me. A party. Crazy I know. Just goes to show how much I really do like some of the girls at work!!!! I am looking forward to it. J was shocked but offered to cook. We're just going to do finger foods and desserts. I am really hoping that none of them are the alcoholic type. I mean a drink or two is fine but I don't want any raging drunks....lol.

I am off to bed. I talked to friend from work for 2 hours ( I guess we don't talk enough at work) and now I am tired.....

Lazy Sunday

Last night J said he thought we should get a bow for the tree. I wanted to say "did you read Jamie's comment or what?" Actually he doesn't know about this blog (to my knowledge) so I thought it was funny. Now I am on a mission to find a bow. A bow will look nice.

I can't take any pictures because J has my camera right now. He "catered" his cousin's baby shower and has been gone all day. I was invited but politely declined. Every time I tried to look for a gift I ended up all teary so I figured it best I not go.

Little J and I went to the mall to see Santa but the line was WAY to long. We decided to try another day (weekday nights are good, if he's not going on break!!) and went to the grocery store. Low and behold who was there? None other than Santa himself, with no line. Little J was shy at first, telling him "no I don't want to tell you what I want" He wouldn't even go near him. He warmed up pretty quick though, and said that maybe on his break from the mall Santa came there (we had tried last week but he was going on break. And no he wouldn't even see one more kid. Santa was being a bastard that night) So the Santa trip is done. They took a picture and asked for my email address so I think they might email me a copy when they develop them. (yes they pulled a disposable camera off the shelf, lol)

I only have to buy J's gift. He wants a playstation. I don't but what can I say? He should be happy with that bad ass tv. And when will he have time to play...... Oh well. I tried to talk him into the game cube, since it was on sale but he wouldn't have it. I guess I'll be getting him that damn playstation but I am making him rent the way to expensive games!

I have no idea what I want. I really am not into it this year. I mean I was happy to decorate and all that but that's about it.

I guess I should eat dinner, obviously J won't be home for awhile. (he called and is at a friend's watching football)

Life is good

We, meaning J actually helped me with some form of decorating, added some snowflake "garland" to the tree. It's that thin wire stuff. I LOVE it. And it was only $1 a roll. It looks much better now. I was going to do a bow as Jamie suggested, but couldn't find the exact teal-ish blue I used. I would have done popcorn per CJ but ummm, we would have eaten most of it!

Little J is doing MUCH better in school. He hasn't thrown a tantrum in a few weeks which is awesome. We have replaced one problem with another though. Now he calls out answers (at least he knows them) I am not as seriously concerned about this one. We talk about raising his hand and being called on before he answers and hopefully the repetitive reminders will help him.

J got a new TV and we upgraded the cable. I am loving all the extra kid shows that are actually age appropriate and kid friendly. I have never been so happy to watch the magic school bus! With the previous limited channels he would get upset when I turned off "Zach and Cody" or "Raven." Now he can watch "On Demand" shows which is awesome. I love the on demand, but I would like DVR for myself (didn't get it) as not many shows I like are on demand......

And now drumroll please.....................





J GOT A NEW JOB. Yep another one. And this one makes me soooo happy. Of course he will go back to not getting holidays off (since they don't close for major holidays) but he gets better vacation and they pay for his (not ours) medical. So where's he going. Right back to FRIDAY'S!!!!!

He'll be paid MUCH more then he got in MS and he is in Florida. I told him that maybe, as you look at the bigger picture, it all worked out in the end. He never really wanted to leave the company but he wanted to come home and get better pay. It took two years, but it happened. It will be a franchise store so a lot will be different, but for him it's like going "home."

Smiles are aplenty in our house and it feels so good.

Small blessing mean the most.

It needs something....

Shaping (the second time)


Fully decorated.


Doesn't it look sparse? I have 60 or more ornaments on it. What's your opinion? What does it need??

OH! MY! GOD!

There is VOMIT on my backporch. Those rowdy little bastards vomited all over my plants. BASTARDS. They didn't answer the door. Probably heard me using the F word pretty loosely. I was so mad I was shaking. I am sitting quietly and as soon as I hear the first footstep I am going up there. J already went to the office and complained. I swear if it's not cleaned up by tomorrow I am calling corporate and making everyone's life hell!


I had a very nice thanksgiving. We bought a fake tree thinking it would be easier, less mess. Were we ever wrong. My hands are all cut up from "shaping" it, and to think I have to do this every year!!!!! I bought new ornaments, under the condition that I get rid of some. I decided to get rid of all the plain glass ones I got from Walmart for like 50 cents a package. 6 boxes plus a paper grocery bag of ornaments, a HUGE bag of assorted garland and a bin of lights. I am freecycling it all. It feels good to get rid of it. The news ones I bought are blue, brown and gold. Fancy that! (I have been on a blue/brown trip lately)

Not much else new.

a few different topics...

I'm burning out at work. BIG TIME. I feel bad saying that because I really like my job and coworkers. I really like the "clients." I really don't like the BS that is increasing every day.......

Friend at work just had a baby boy. J's cousin is due next month with a baby girl, and J is catering the shower. I really don't want to attend. I couldn't even look for gifts. Instead I squoze (yeah I say squoze) little J's hand extra tight and said a small thank you for the little hell raiser I have been blessed with.

Today I went coat shopping for the kid. He just needs something thin for in the morning. Of course I couldn't find anything (ANYWHERE) that wasn't blizzard wear. I mean snow pants and everything for crying out loud. Whose gonna use snowpants in Florida when it's 70* in the afternoons????? So we came home coatless. I did pick up two more sweatshirts and two super cute sweaters for him though.

On a good note, the other day J handed me his fortune (chinese for dinner) The first side I looked at said "daughter" on the other side it said "hallelujah" There's the sign I had asked for. J only read hallelujah and thought it was a stupid "fortune!" But of course I saw the bigger picture!

Little J is no better at school. I am frustrated beyond words. But I can find good in all of this mess. He is right where he should be academically. He does his work and asks for more. He reads at level. So really he is doing quite well, except for the self control issue.

The idiots upstairs woke us up at 2:40 am to what sounded like bowling balls dropping on the floor. I actually got up and pounded on the ceiling. ( I have lived in apts for 7 years and never done that before) I would have gone up there but I was naked. And besides J and I have asked them to quiet down on more then one occasion. Up until now I have not made a formal complaint with the leasing office but I am tomorrow.

Ahh the life of apartment living.

Oh oh oh. We decided to go ahead and get a fake tree this year. Yeah me the queen of all things "traditional." I found a really nice one at Home Depot. I just have to get J to go take a look and actually pick it up. My trunk has too much stuff in it. J's of course is clean and empty, the luxury of not driving with little J.

I have also done most of my Christmas shopping. Little J is not getting toys from us. And no it's not because of his behavior. It's because I filled three bags for Goodwill and you'd never know it by looking at his toy bins. I didn't tell family they couldn't buy them though. And he might get something small from Santa. I am real tempted to buy a lump of coal and a switch...

We draw names now so I got Brother in law and J got mom. Both easy, gift cards! I did get the nephews gifts and am actually ready to ship them off. Just gotta get J something. TOUGH!

What's a mom to do?

J is still having trouble with the temper tantrums and now he is "talking out" I can't get mad as I remember every elementary school report card of mine said I couldn't be quiet. But what should I do? Here's a recap of what we have done. No TV. No toys. No special treats, like happy meals or new toys. On good days he is allowed tv or toys, his choice, for 1 hour. He noticed another child in his class wore a string to remind him to be good (J said "mom, he doesn't get cards anymore just CHECKS!" So I assume he's worse of then J) J said that it was working for the other boy and that it might work for him too. I got him the string. Green to remind him to get a green card at school. Hasn't helped yet. I told him we could try writing SH! on his hand, since talking out seems to be the frequent problem.

Really!!! I don't know what to do. My mom says that although it's a pain now he'll grow out of it. But as we recall I still interrupt people and "talk out" as J calls it. Mom said I turned out all right. Mature, responsible, good work ethic. She said if this is the biggest problem we have we'll be lucky. I agree totally but something has to be done when the teacher is sending notes and calling. She expects something to be done about it. I have talked with her at length about what we're doing and so far it seems she is still in our corner. I just assume she'll be angry with us.

I started a chart at home so he could see just how often he is not following classroom rules. Maybe it'll help, we'll see.


In other news today I get to have lunch with Darlene! It's been months! It's a good week for Hobby Lobby, all xmas ornaments are half off!

Ahhh vacation

Ok I thought it was mid afternoon by now (yeah I know I JUST dropped J at school, well 7;45) I came home and started cleaning my closet, which led to organization of all things craft. I also weeded out bookshelf and have quite a large goodwill bag now. So after all my hard work I thought, wow it must be pretty late and I should jump in the shower. Ummm it's 9 freaking 30. I only know this because one of my "colleagues" called me with a craft question and I told her I would run to Joann's (already planned on it) I figured I'd better get moving so I could get back to her today and that's when I looked at the clock. And as you can read, I have seen the light and am now relaxing on the couch.

Yesterday was a WONDERFUL day. J and I had lunch and went to the mall, where we window shopped (trying to find an xmas gift for mom) and ended up getting pedicures. Yes both of us. Yes my husband. The one who hates all things "girly" HIS idea. It was awesome. We were both pedicure virgins. I got a cute french (too bad it's cold) but he balked at clear. I am not sure where the idea came from but I loved it. We did a little shopping, cologne for him, $1.19 earrings for me. Sears had a huge clearance section and I couldn't resist. I was really in there for little j clothes, but again nothing good on clearance yet. It was raining when we left so picked up J and came home.

J works a double today, because he was trying to get Monday off. Originally I had thought school would be closed on Monday for veteran's day but it's actually this Friday. I told him that about three times but he still had it in his head that he needed Monday off. The Monday he really needs is the 27th. But even though he has to work a double it worked out for the other manager. His birthday (and girlfriend's) was today but GM wouldn't give him the day off. At least he gets to celebrate now....

I guess I will go back to my closets......

From Darlene

What American accent do you have? Your Result: The Inland North You may think you speak "Standard English straight out of the dictionary" but when you step away from the Great Lakes you get asked annoying questions like "Are you from Wisconsin?" or "Are you from Chicago?" Chances are you call carbonated drinks "pop."
The Midland
The Northeast
Philadelphia
The South
The West
Boston
North Central
What American accent do you have? Take More Quizzes

Totally me, I wandered away from the great lakes and everyone comments on it.
Although at some point I started calling "pop" "soda!" I'm not sure why maybe it started in Mississippi.

J is at work doing inventory. Since we planned on the test tomorrow he stayed to get it done tonight.

I swear the guys above me are dropping dumbells on the freaking floor. They are the loudest ones yet. Literally running laps through the living room. I've asked them to quit down on more then one occasion. I guess my next move is to ask the office to tell them to cut it out. I hate em......

It's 7 oh 7

Do you know where your husband is? yeah me neither.

Just thought I'd mention, we bought one of the Febreeze "Noticeable's" (like a glade plug-in but SO much better) It's awesome. I went and bought another one today. This time I got the holiday one(limited edition, I better stock up) It's a mix of cinnamon and pine. MMMMMM!!! They also have two other really good smells. I don't know the names but it's the green one and the blue one. What makes it awesome is that it's two alternating scents. Pricey but fabulous, especially when you have a coupon!

7:12 husband still not home. What the hell...........

Scratch that

So the test that was supposed to be 100% covered is no longer. Even this morning at the Dr's office the receptionist said "wow, it's covered completely?" The facility where I was to have it done called and told me it would be $900. (and that's just my bill) Needless to say the test has been cancelled. In two months my plan will switch to an HMO, which can be a pain but at least I'll only be paying $100. I'm just lucky I found out with enough time to cancel. As disheartening as it is I don't want to empty my savings if I can wait another two months (since I've waited two years) and have better coverage.

I am not upset now, after I've had time to go over it. But initially I almost had to have J cancel the appt and skip karate. Eventually I pulled myself together and did both on my own.

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The dentist went fine. The hygenist LOVED my payless shoe.........

Sheeeesh

I had an appt to fill out paperwork for tomorrow's test. Come to find out I had to get an "exam" first. Wish they would have told me.... (but hey at least my legs were shaved) So after that I signed my life/uterus away and went to fill my prescriptions. I wandered around target and found they had booster car seats on sale. I didn't need one but J is still in a 5pt harness that he can't hook himself and it's kind of a pain. Now he can buckle himself and it's much easier to leave this one with a sitter.

I have my dental appt. at 2pm and then I HAVE to come home and clean.

I'll fill ya in tomorrow night.....

It's official

I'm on vacation! Monday I have a dentist appt and have to go to my dr's office to fill out paperwork. Tuesday morning I have the HSG done. I have two days to myself and then Little J has friday off for veteran's day.

J is mad at me, because I was mad at him about something that wasn't his fault. He left and didn't take his phone. I hate when he does that. I understand his need to get away, I was in a really foul mood, I just wish he hadn't been so hurried that he forgot his phone. And no I wouldn't have called him. I just don't like him (or myself) being without.

Good news at work. They like me enough to give me a promotion. One that I am definately not ready for. Honestly.... Also I don't know that I want the responsiblity. But I have already told them I don't feel ready, not to mention that if anyone wanted to put up a stink they could since my scorecard reflects the truth. Anyway, it was really nice to know that the person you least expect has a lot of faith in you.

Hey he's home...

Blahhhh

What's worse then finding yourself sick on a Friday morning? After my break yesterday I was so sick and thought maybe the food I ate had something to do with it. I had to work through the stomach cramps, nausea and dizziness, and I should get an award for it :) I came home and tried to go to bed but I started throwing up. "Hmmm," you say. Could this be sign of pregnancy? Yeah I thought so too, but according to the HP test it's just some virus that has invaded my body or some weird symptoms of impending menstruation... I took J to karate and thought some soup would be ok for lunch. NOT OK. We came home and I went back to bed. He is being terrific and playing in his room.

I guess my vacation will coincide with the right days to have the HSG done. It was still up in the air, since my cycle can't seem to get it's shit together lately. I am going to call the Dr Monday and hopefully something will be open that week. (and cross your fingers she isn't on vacation) I also have a dentist appt. Our dentist had to retire but a new DDS is running the practice. I hope I like him....

J brought me salad for dinner last night and I really want to eat it but I know it won't stay down. I am soooo hungry, and that salad looks soooo good.....

CRAP

School's out on friday. No sitter. What am I gonna do. This is ridiculous! I hate being here. If I was still in MS I'd have a sitter. If I was in Ohio I'd have a sitter. But here I am in wonderful freakin florida with no sitter. Yeah I'm bitter. But really I have no idea what to do. J tried to switch shifts but that didn't work......

Well.....

I had no baby sitter today so J came to work with me for two hours then we came home. J sr's niece was supposed to watch him but when I went over there no one answered the door. AFTER I knocked for TEN minutes, I tried to call but I got voicemail. By that time I was going to be late and I was supposed to be opening. I loaded j back into the car and went on my way. Everyone did a double take as they came in this morning, but really what could I do? I did my opening "chores" and we left. And they're lucky I cared enough to do that. I coulda just called in completely!

I fell asleep around 11:30 and didn't wake up until 2:30. Woops. But J was ok. I let him turn his tv back on and he ate the lunch I packed him (when he was supposed to be at niece's) We dropped some food off for J. I don't know why but he had to stay at work all day. He's still not home. We went to Karate and J did well.

Still not pregnant, still haven't done the tests. I have vacation scheduled in two weeks but it doesn't conincide with my period so I can't schedule the tests for then. What am I gonna do? Two year mark is quickly approaching.

Time for some soup. It's quiet so it's also time to ponder some things...

Cool Breezes

It's finally cooling off. AWESOME!

My 4 yr old nephew is in Ohio making me a buckeye necklace because I asked him to. I promised to wear it. That sucker'll weigh like 5 pounds but I'm gonna sport it anyway. I told him to find two tiny ones to make a pair of earring. If you're wondering what a buckeye is (besides the Ohio State mascot) it's the state tree of Ohio. We were lucky (and unlucky) enough to have two huge trees in our yard. (unlucky because they are in spiky hulls that hurt like hell if you step on one from the previous fall, barefoot.)

HOLY GEEEEZE

I went to the mall, well two of them, and found some $2 shirts for little J. I was looking for the $2 shorts but they didn't have any this time.

So the whole point of this is to say..... I wore some supercute slingbacks and now I have some supercute blisters on my feet(superHUGE too). YOWSA! They hurt so bad. What was I thinking trying to be cute?????

Oh and in other news. I once again found an eviction notice on my door, most of you have probably forgotten the last time. If I pay anything on time it's the damn rent. When I gave her my new lease I clipped the rent check to it. I told her that it was for October rent, but human error occurred and she left it clipped to the lease. PAIN IN MY ASS. At least this time they found it.

Book fair time and I am volunteering. Had I realized I would be off I would have worked it ALL day today. I am so freaking bored. But I volunteered for the late shift on Thursday. I can't wait. I love school book fairs! The library (now called "the media center") is awesome by itself so I am looking forward to doing it.

I keep hitting tab instead of enter because my brain keeps reverting to my work email where I have to tab to get a new line. Quite annoying here as I then have to mouse back to where I was......

Shit I just did it again!

Little J got invited to a friend's house but becasue of the tantrums he couldn't go. I am hoping he behaves this week because I would really like for him to have an after school friend.

My lunch is done and then I am off to Target to buy bandaids for my feet. I will not be able to work without them.......

It's quiet

No work for me but the kid has school. I really don't have anything to do, well besides cleaning this filthy house :)

Last night J highlighted my hair. And let me just say the $7 dollar revlon highlights are AWESOME. And $7!!!! I am in love! I love my hair dark but it was just too much. The highlights make it look a lot better. And no one would ever know I didn't spend $70. Sweeeet.

J isn't doing better at school and there isn't much more we can do to stop him. I just hope that it's something he will eventually outgrow.

J sr has been thinking about getting a new job. He has FINALLY realized that there is going to be bullshit everywhere. That although we loved his job with Friday's (and miss the free food) there was bullshit there that made him leave. The current BS is a little more maddening but is it so much so that he wants to start all over again. I think he is seeing that it's not worth it. Sure he could get MUCH better vacation time but that's about it. He can't change the hierarchy of upper management no matter where he goes. I am not sure what his final decision will be.

I need to get my butt in school. I can't do my job forever. Although I am happy I can see the potential for advancement isn't great. Of course I could advance but I would have to kiss a lot of ass and I just don't want to. I've realized that I need a career, not a job. But of course I have no idea what I want to do with myself.

It's only 9am. What am I going to do with myself all day......

What a week

J has been throwing temper tantrums at school. This isn't really a new issue, since he does it here at home, but it hadn't yet carried over to school. Now it has and in a big way. Everybody seems to think we give in to these tantrums at home. WE DON'T. I don't ever give him what he is crying for. Just to clear that up.....
We tried talking to him about it (but come on he's been doing it for 2 years, talking isn't working) So as it continues we have allowed only 15 minutes of tv. Then no tv altogether. Then NO toys. His room is completely bare (it's so nice and clean) No snacks. No treats. No happy meals. No nothing. As of last week none of that had worked. I am really hoping that this week will be a better week. As it stands I've already had two phone calls from his teacher and we have a conference scheduled in two weeks. GREAT........ One of my co-workers says we need to give him a good spanking. But I KNOW that doesn't work with J. It may work for other kids, but with J it only affects him for the moment. He will not remember the next time he throws a fit how badly the last spanking hurt. So I am at a loss.

I have no other news.

Why

Am I awake at 6:40a? Who knows, but I'll be tired by noon.

I got "the letter people" yesterday(from eBay). I was so excited. I don't know if any of you remember them but they came out in the late 70's for school and then PBS started airing it a few years later. Little J is on TV restriction so all we did was listen to the music CD.

I took him to the beach after karate yesterday and he had fun rolling around in the water. I didn't wear my suit so he stayed close to shore. Even still the waves were crashing and my pants were soaked to the knee,.







We're going to Michaels today. I finally found a chair for J's desk. AC Moore has a 50% off coupon for today only and they (m) accept competitor's. Then we will head to Home Depot for some paint.

And they're off

The boys are off to see the Jagaurs / Cowboys game. Little J is SO excited to get to go to a football game. Big J is SO excited to see the cowboys. They are both decked out in Cowboys gear and on their way to the stadium.

I am looking forward to the quiet time and have some sewing planned. I am working on a bag for a friend and I want to get Little J's curtains finished.

I splurged on myself and bought the new Dixie Chicks cd. I have only listened to the first track but so far so good. I am heading over to Joann's now. I need to pick up a few things that I forgot yesterday.

Here's something to curb the blues

I am going through all our closets getting rid of clothes, shoes and purses that I no longer wear/use. I pulled a size 14 denim skirt out of the pile that I know for a fact I couldn't fit any longer and tried it on. IT FIT! First miracle was that I went from an 18 to a 16 pant. Now I can fit the 14 skirt. Fabulous. I can't say it's anything more then the skirt is stretch denim because I currently have on an 18 that is not big at all. But to say something in my closet is a 14. Sweet Jesus, what a day!

It's officially "that time of year"

When I become bitter and depressed. The beginning of the end of summer. Autumn is my favorite season and I will miss it again. It's not something I can get used to. I need the coolness, the smell. I need the county fair and Yankee Peddler. I try to mimic it in my own home, but even seasonal decorations don't help. It's hard to pretend when it's still broiling outside. It's even harder to get up north now that little J is in real school. I swear if I have to spend the rest of my life in Florida I may wither and die...........

Headache from hell

My head hurts. I believe the cause is a late dinner, due to Karate. Yes folks I took the kid to karate!!

It's fundraiser time at school and I hate it. Here's my selling pitch: "You can spend 16 bucks on this crap or you can donate $5 and be a non active member of the PTA." How sad that most people are opting to buy the crap. I thought I would make more money with the whole $5 PTA thing, which is totally legit. Any member of the community can join without actually participating. If any of you out there is blog land would like to donate they have a website you can purchase from. (email for the link, I know none of you will and I don't hate you one bit)

In other news. J has gotten a yellow card at least once a week. And what are we on week three???? Every school is different, most work on the 1-5 number scale. J gets colored cards. Green is good, yellow needed some reminding, red is awful and parents are called. I'm not surprised that J needed some reminding. I remember our report cards as girls, always full of "they talk TOO much and DON'T pay attention!!" After all he is only five and they don't take naps. None the less it's a rule he's breaking and I didn't want the consequence to include daddy's belt which was totally gonna happen if he found out. I punished him from the TV for THREE WHOLE DAYS. It was sheer torture (for me) I thought I was going to go insane, but I followed through! He got a green card today and came straight home to watch "animal planet" which is his new obsession.

We're getting a new manager at work and I don't know that I can adjust. She seems to be more of a hardass. Beautiful but a hardass none the less!

Hmmm "none the less" twice in one post. I need a new phrase!

Here's a good story. I took our infant car seat out of the outside storage so I could wash the cover before I give it away. As I was taking it all apart a HUGE cockroach came flying out. I screamed, threw the carseat and then chased the damn thing all over the living room before I finally got it. GROSS. I can just imagine how many others are in the warm dark outside closet. SICK.

All the large baby items that I was going to keep are taking up too much space and at this point I'd just rather buy new. All that is left is the crib, playpen and high chair. I am missing some of the hardware for the crib so I think that may be leaving soon. I am tired of hanging onto all this junk in hopes of using it again. It's already been in storage for 5 years. I can't do it anymore. The car seats are stinky (and have roaches in them, ewww) and the other stuff wasn't so expensive that I couldn't just buy it again. We'll see. J loves the crib, and seems to have a hard time parting with it. I am also ready to get rid of the little tikes playhouse. Yeah we have a playhouse inside this little ass apartment. Little J says it's too small for him now, but it's something else Big J wants to keep. Again, I feel it's something we can re-purchase when the time comes and only if we have backyard to put it in.

Oh too much babbling. I have lunches to make and clothes to wash, and all I want to do is go to bed.

Rambling

Yesterday I searched high and low for a damn desk or even just a chair for little J. He has a desk but the chair that came with it was very low to the ground. I went to Goodwill, no desk, but a very nice tanning bed for sale. I went to The Salvation Army, no desk, but a lot of nasty couches. I went to the unfinished wood store and target. NOTHING. What the hell?? Only because I need one right?

So I posted on Freecycle and for once someone responded. Sweet.....

I rearranged the living room, but still have a lot to do. I have lost the desire and the room looks like shit. But my idea was a good one. I like how it looks so far. I just had so much shit and nowhere to put it. Our bedroom is so small and the furniture so big that I can't put any of the extra shit in there. And then the cable outlet is far from where I want to put my computer. What's a girl to do? I need smaller furniture, less tables, something...

I think I might get a storage unit. Maybe. I would like to put some of the bedroom furniture in it, but I doubt J will go for it. Hmmmm. I gotta come up with a plan. I also want to get a dining room table, which I why I started changing the room around. I wish we had an IKEA so I could get some small furniture. That would be awesome. The nearest one is in Sunrise, and both of them (cause I don't know which Sunrise it's in) are 4 + hours away.

Soooooo. I guess I better get moving.

Wow

It's a beautiful morning. After the terrential downpour yesterday, things have cooled off and for now the humidity is at bay. I have the backdoor open and the birds are chirping away. I love it. I am glad I got up early enough to enjoy it.

I am supposed to be getting ready for Karate, but I am not in the mood. (we're still going though)

I guess there's not much going on here. We decided to renew our current lease again. I just can't justify moving into another apartment that costs $300 dollars more per month. If we stay here we can put that money we would have spent toward my CC debt. Wich is what I have every intention of doing and believe me, J is so mad about it (it's about time) that he will really make me do it. I have no idea why he finally realized how bad it is and that we really need to do something about it but I am glad he did. We have gone rounds on this for years so at least there is an agreement.

The bank has a really awesome first time buyer home loan. If we qualify we can get a 25 thousand dollar grant for the down payment and closing costs. I think if it has anything to do with me that my credit will get us booted right out the door, so I am having J do this alone. Weird how it used to be his credit holding us back and now it'll be mine. But anyway the mortgage lender said it is not a short process so we figured if we got started on that and stayed here (paying down debt) we might have a chance at getting a house by next year.

Ok I really have to go. Damn karate.

Happy Anniversary

Our's was yesterday. We buy gifts off the "traditional gift list" and this year was leather (we buy according to our years of marriage, instead of how long we've actually been together, which is 6/3) I got him a new wallet, which was badly needed. He bought me....drumroll please.......






A Dooney & Bourke purse. HOLY COW!

Talk about expensive, especially when I am notoriusly cheap! I love it but am saddened that the matching wallet is over $100. SICK. Maybe I'll put it on my Christmas list. I had decided a couple months back that instead of buying a few cheap purses I would like to have one really nice purse. He remembered.

He also bought me beautiful orange roses (I love orange flowers) We didn't go out to dinner because his mouth is still bothering him. He had all four wisdom teeth pulled on tuesday. It went fine, just the usual soreness. I am not looking forward to having mine done.


I can't believe I am up this early, lol. And I have already cleaned the bathroom and done some laundry. Amazing for a sunday!

The vacation

The family arrived on the 4th and we've had a blast. We couldn't do much since we both had to work and little had school, but we went to the pool every night. They were able to stay for the 2nd pool party (the 1st party was at the Chuckster) Everyone that was invited attended the pool party and I hope they all had fun. My dad and nephew (but mostly my dad) made cakes for both J's and they were awesome!

J started Kindergarten with no trouble at all (and I never expected any) and his new teacher is very nice. I love the school, it's so nice and clean and still has the newness to it, even though it's a few years old.

I like it so much that I don't want to move out of this area until J goes to highschool (the middle school is right next door to the elementary) We don't want to stay in this apartment and house on this side of town start in the 200's, so we are looking at different apartments that will have a much higher price. None are priced TOO high since our rent goes up $20 every time we renew the damn lease. We looked at one yesterday and the pictures were much better then the actual complex! We don't have much time due to the damn 60 day letter of intent policy. We know we aren't staying but if we can't find anything we don't want to be stuck. We have two more weeks befoer notice is due.......

The familt left this morning, so things are back to usual and not quite as fun. J's sis and brother are supposed to come over tonight for dinner to celebrate his birthday. I haven't gotten him a gift yet! I guess I'd better go shopping!

Weekend update

I worked today. Then I came home and fell asleep. I hadn't felt tired during work but I sure was sleepy when I got here. I just woke up and am still a bit groggy.

After I cleaned the house for butthead, he took it a step further and washed the floors. Now let's see if he can his shit off the floor, since he's just as messy as me.

We've come to a conclusion about the party. We are going to do the Chuckster next weekend with my sis. I know J's family would rather attend the Chuckster as well. Whatever weekend J has off is when we'll have the pool party for all the kids.

I am really tempted to go to Joann's. They have remnants for 90% off. I just can't seem to find the energy. Maybe I'll stop at mcdonald's and grab a coffee.


OHHHHH, And has anyone seen all the Ohio Flood footage on the news? That's where my family is. Luckily they had no personal damage. I couldn't believe the photos!

Ok I gotta get moving.

Life ain't always beautiful

So have you noticed that we're not at each other's throats lately? Oh it was bound to end eventually.....

First he got upset about the kid's party. I half understand. I had it all planned until my sister said she was coming down the first week of august. I changed the party to that Saturday and I am sure I told J, he just wasn't listening. He got upset since he is not sure if he can get that Saturday off. Since I only gave out one invitation I offered to change it. (the other people that have been personally invited can easily be told the new date and I don't think it would matter much) but he said no and stayed mad.

Then we came home and the house was a mess. He yelled at me about it and I yelled right back. It's not fair that I am expected to clean on my one day off but he's not. I have little J seven days a week. I never get a true day off. Know what J did today? Slept. All. Damn. Day. I'm not saying the house needed to be spotless but he could have done something. But noooo it's all my fault and my responsibility. He said he cleans the kitchen every time and that I NEVER do. So untrue. I told him I would clean it tonight just to shut him up. Then he continued to mutter bs under his breath. I told him to shut up and he left.

I am not THAT mad. Just some healthy venting. (but really this is an ongoing battle) The house is clean and he's still not home. Not sure where he's at but I had dinner and got little J into bed.

Who wants to bet he'll do the silent treatment crap. Gosh he needs to learn to let shit roll off his back. He'll be mad at me for the next 3 days, lol.

In other news. Swim is over. And I still hate karate.

Oh and have you noticed

That most of you have moved blogs and I haven't updated the links. I myself just noticed and I don't feel like changing it at the moment.

What is up

With this early dismissal crap???? I just looked at the 2006-2007 school year and they have early dismissals twice a month. Who thought that was a good idea? Obviously not a working parent who can't pick their child up at 1:15. We did not get early dismissal days until I was in High school and it was like 3 times a year.

Which is yet another reason I wish we were in Ohio. If we were I would never have to worry about time out of school because my stay at home Sister would gladly watch little J. But now we have no one who is completely free (without jobs to work around)

anyway....

Swim is going well. I don't like that he is in the beginner class. It is basically getting used to water and he is way beyond that. Oh well. I'll just teach him on my own. Or keep him in water wings till he's twenty, lol.

Things are going well around here. J has been closing so I haven't seen him much. He is off tomorrow and I have a half day so maybe we'll do lunch. Although I love a half day the downside is having to work Saturdays. I don't mind at all except finding a sitter. If I had one I would work every Saturday.

I only got about 4 hours sleep last night. I was tired this morning but I was fine once I got moving. But I'm dragging now and ready for bed. I hear thunder rolling in so I will sleep soundly.......

I can't sleep

Wow! I can't believe the weekend is over.

We went school shopping at Target, who had EVERYTHING on clearance. I got everything 50% off and only spent $50 on clothes. All we need are a couple pairs of pants but since it's 200 degrees right now I think we can wait on those. I've got all the school supplies except the ream of paper and clorox wipes. So we're all set for the big day. It doesn't seem so big to Little J, since he is still going to school.

We've decide to have a pool party for the kid's birthday. I am not sure that it's a terrific idea. I as a parent would not want to attend a pool party knowing I would have to be in the water, or at least have a swimsuit on in case I needed to jump in. I as the hostess don't want to parade around in swimsuit as all the other Mom's that are invited are thin and too cute. But J is convinced it's the best idea for having a lot of kids (10)

My sis and the boys are coming down, since little J was sad that they wouldn't be able to visit this year. I really wish we lived closer. I feel like time is moving too fast and I really don't like little J being so far away from my family. I always had cousins around and I hate that little J doesn't. I don't think it's fair to him to be alone all the time......

My house is still a mess, but at least I got some laundry done. Neither of us feel like cleaning and it shows.

I should probably go lie down. J won't be home for a few more hours and I think that's why I can't sleep, even though I have to be up in 6 hours.....

Geez

I admit that I am totally jealous of my sisters. In a mean "woe-is-me" kinda way.

Here's my list:

I am upset that I am not in Ohio.

My sisters blog has no mention of me, as if there is no Bonnie at all. Which makes me jealous of other sister who makes appearances......

The sisters went to Germany for two weeks. I could not go, though I was invited.

This weekend they made friends with the band Candelbox. All three of us LOVE them. They hung out with them all weekend. Lucky Bitches. Are you kidding me???? Really seriously the lead singer called them at home!!!!!!

And those are the latest reasons as to why I am secretly jealous of them.

Right now they make me sick........

Dear Chris

Not weirded out really. I am originally from Ohio and my sister's boyfriend's name is Chris, lol. My family doesn't know of this blog so I thought I was caught :)

Thank you for the condolences!!!!

Sooooo

My dr. was very excited that I was pregnant. Weird I know but getting pg is a good sign, even if something goes wrong. The next bit of info won't make much sense to anyone but Jams. The progesteron during my luteal phase should be between 3 and 23 (says dr.) Mine was at a 7. She told me that if I get another positive to call her immediatley to have a lab done. If it is still low then I will take supplements to increase the chance of keeping the pregnancy. She is very optimistic that I will get pg between now and september (when we are finally able to schedule the HSG) and if not then our next step is Chlomid. That makes me NERVOUS. But we'll cross that bridge when we come to it.

The dr. actually made me feel better (usually I feel like crap after seeing her) I really thought I would have to switch dr's after this (since I thought I would feel especially crappy)


Thanks for the sympathy, it's nice to know ya'll care. Although Chris in Ohio kinda weirded me out. Could it be Chris that I know? Lol. Probably not but small world none the less.

It was a busy week

2 screw ups at work that will cost me my monthly incentive. One was my error. One was my customer's, that I corrected and had customer sign the change, yet the bitches at processing still threw me out of balance. It really pissed me off. And is still pissing me off when I talk about it. I am going to fight this one to my death........ But besides those two things work is fine. And it's not like those two things are gonna be the end of me, although my monthly review and incentive are shot.

I worked six days and got not one things accomplished at home. I have piles of laundry, dishes and crap to take care of. Did J clean even a little on his days off. Once he cleaned the kitchen, but immediately after cooking it was a mess again and stayed that way. He didn't do anything else helpful.

Little J starts swim next week and I can't wait.

We went to a picnic at GM's house. We had a good time, as usual. I swear the whole neighborhood was there this time. The only bad part was when the strangers asked when we were going to have another child. I just replied eventually and let J take over the conversation. Once they stopped asking questions I was fine. We didn't get home til 10:30 and we all went to bed.

Speaking of J's work. There is a very believable rumor that the lot the restaurant sits on is being sold (part of the beach condo boom) I am so nervous I could throw up. Of course the company isn't saying a word but I really do believe that it'll happen. J is adamant that they would never let him go, just send him to another store. That would mean moving again. And since I barely can do the hustle and bustle now I can't imagine living in central FL.


I got the progesterone lab back and it is "normal, but on the low normal side, so call us when you start your cycle." I am going to call to see exactly what that means. What is "low normal" and how does that effect the situation? It should 100% normal or not at all. And I think I am gonna switch to someone else in the practice. I really like my dr. but every vacation she takes fall around my cycle and the days the tests need to be done. And she takes a lot of damn vacation. My co-workers sees another doctor and really likes him ( yes I said him, I have to overcome this phobia of male professionals) so I might ask to see him, or even just ask if he could do the HSG in her place. (since she'll be on vacation)

I guess I should get moving. I have so much to do. Because we went to the picnic I didn't get my usual Saturday grocery shopping done.

Time for change

I am redoing J's bedroom in a "Car's," the movie, theme.

Hob Lob has really cute material. It all started with a small lap quilt (that's what they called it) that I made J to use at school. I thought it would be really cute to make him new curtains, since he has the car bed and all. Then he asked me for a regular blanket to use at home. I figured it out and it will only cost me $35 to make the blanket, curtains, and some pillows. That's less then one of the store brand comforters cost. The Disney store is selling there Car's bedding for $100 and up (sick!)

I am excited to start on it. I think it'll be so cute in his room. And since he already has red curtains (from spider-man) I only have to make two Car's panels (instead of 4)

Back to my sewing now. I am making one of the lap quilts for BF's son. He has to get something new, since I am sure he'll be a little jealous of the baby.

My BF had her daughter yesterday morning. Mom and daughter are doing just fine (sigh of relief) She has not named her yet but is leaning toward Isabella, which I LOVE Although we knew she was gonna be early we both thought she would go into labor next week, so I still have the box of goodies sitting here. I am pretty sure that they can get to Orlando in the next two days and I know that she does have enough stuff to get buy. Her aunt bought her the pack 'n' play she needed and her mom bought her "layette." She took a car seat safety class and they gave her a seat for only $20. Somehow the girl scraped by and got what she needed. I am making her diaper tote #2 and it's gonna be so cute. It's purple quilted brocade with gold and lavender butterfly's. It's hard getting the outer pockets on perfectly so I am going to rip it one more time. The other bag is just as cute and in the box ready to go. I really hope she likes it. I also went through my bin of baby stuff and found some sleepers to send along with the new ones.

I go through J's baby bin annually and try to weed out the stuff I really don't need. I figured I can always buy new sleepers, no sense holding onto them until who knows when. But I think I have gotten rid of all I will. Most of the clothes now are the expensive or really cute outfits that I just can't give up.

I go tomorrow to have my progesterone levels checked. And then comes the dreaded HSG. I am going to inquire about evening hours, since it will be at an outpatient center. If I could get an appointment around 4pm I think I could swing it at work.

In other news:
I talked to my other BF (from Jr high) for three hours last night. I have been friends with her for 15 years, gosh how crazy that sounds. But we drifted apart in high school, different social settings. I haven't talked to her in about 4 years. She saw my mom at the grocery store and gave mom her phone number. It was really nice being able to talk to someone who remembers the fun we had. It's easier than trying to tell someone who has no idea and really doesn't really care.

We were amazed at the time that has passed and how everyone has grown up. Her son will be in third grade and she has a two year old daughter. She couldn't believe my nephew will be 13 (none of us can) or that little J will be five already. Time really flies and it's scary to look back on. We don't feel old it's just sad when you begin to realize you'll never get those years back.

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It's time for my weekly cleaning and I am not looking forward to it. At least the laundry's not so bad this week.

*smacking forehead with palm*

I really wish J would use spell check and let me read before he sends an email. He sent an email to someone important and the word "forward" and "candidate" were spelled wrong. DAMN DAMN DAMN. I hope the woman isn't as anal as I am about stuff like that.

ohhh. Black belt testing

Black Belt Testing was yesterday. Chief Master Clark and GRAND Master Lee were there. Grand Master has never been, so it was a BIG deal.

They gave everyone a poster to have autographed and of course their belts. We didn't stay the full three hours, but did wait to meet them and then watched some of the testing.

Double damn

Something always blows my good streak.

My fish died. Now I know it's just a fish but I was very attached to him. We've had him for almost 4 years so it was just old age(in fish years). I guess we would have been quite a sight if you had seen little J and I crying by the fish tank. Big J laughed at me, "since it's just a fish." He also told me to go buy a new one. Ummm hello non-replaceable...... We're burying him at sea (the pond) this afternoon.

Also I have not yet ovulated and I should be. Which can be bad or GREAT. I am gonna lean towards great and keep my fingers crossed that my period won't come either.

But here's back to my good streak. I had to buy tires a few months ago and they ended up being crap and the dealership didn't care. So I had to buy new again. Talk about pissed. Anyway. I called my dad to ask him what kind of tire to buy. J says I can't do anything without calling my dad, but in truth I had tried to call him 4 times with the same question. When my dad didn't answer I called a family friend. He didn't answer either so I made the decision on my own. I had seen an add for Firestone. 4 tires for $100. I didn't know if I should get cheap one's again. I even pulled the tires up on line and they seemed ok, but I couldn't find anyone to consult with. My dad called me back while I was purchasing the $300 tires and offered to pay. WHY WOULD I SAY NO. James thinks I did it on purpose (sub-consciencely to get dad to pay) but I had my debit card ready to swipe. I DID NOT think dad would offer to pay. I mean it was $300. I could have seen him paying for the $100 ones. So that's the good. Dad paid for my tires. And even if I try to pay him back he won't cash my checks.

Now I have to go grocery shopping and I SO don't want to.

(and blogger spell check did not recognize "ovulated")

The good, the bad, and the annoying

GOOD: I HAVE LOST TEN POUNDS! and J's pay and bonus are in the bank. Thank goodness for that. J took little to school without my asking, which gives me an extra 30 minutes (that I am wasting)

BAD: none so far

THE ANNOYING: I had to pay $30 for my Dr. visit. They do this every time I go and then in two weeks I'll get a $10 refund check. It's not their fault, insurance all the way...... Also it was just a consultation. Had I known that I would have re-scheduled for a week when I could afford it.


So anyway. The dr's visit went well. She said because my first set of labs came back ok (way back in April) that I don't have to do them again. After I ovulate this month I will go in to have my progestrone levels checked and then schedule the HSG. Hopefully all within the same week or so, since both need to be done after ovulation but before my period starts. J at the same time has to have his tests done and he is none too thrilled (I'm not thrilled about mine either) but he is not against it or anything. Sometimes I wonder about him. We had previously said we wouldn't use fertility drugs because I don't want the chance of a multiples (he agreed at the time) The Dr. said if everything is ok drugs are our next step. J said "twins would be nice" WTH???? When did that change. I am still wary of the drugs.

And now I better run. I always bullshit when I have extra time and end up being late.....

My car, I swear

The check engine light was on AGAIN. This time the fuel cap was the culprit. Every time it comes on it is something to do with the fuel system. We have had the sensor replaced 3 times. Also my rotors were warped and something was broken or missing on the tail pipe.

It's all under warranty but still a big pain. Luckily we have two cars now. J took mine to the dealership and then brought me lunch and switched out cars (god forbid he drive the kia anymore)

So that's my big news..... lol

I have a dr's appt on Wednesday. It's just a follow up visit. With my new job it's going to be really hard scheduling the HSG test. I am too new to get PTO or real consideration when it comes to exceptions. I thought I could schedule it for a late Friday afternoon but that's not going to get ok'd. I really don't want to delve into my issues with my manager but if I have too I have too. I really don't know what to do about the test. I have heard it is pretty damn painful. The only time I can schedule it is midweek and work as usual. Oh why can't I just be normal..........

I am not sure what is going to happen at this visit, but I am thinking of switching dr's. I am tired of trying with no results. I was completely regular until November and there has to be some reason why that changed, in addition to not getting pregnant.

I'm tired. I think it'll be an early night. We've already had dinner. Leftover meatloaf and mashed potatoes. It was yummy.

Life's a whirlwind

But there's no drama. Things are going really well. (about time!)

Well except that we have no money. Literally. Not even the $30 till payday like it used to be. Here's how it happened. The payday before last the company that does their payroll was all screwed up and J did not get paid. Corporate advanced him some money (we didn't need the WHOLE check advanced) until his direct deposit went through. The repayment was supposed to be deducted from his bonus check this payday. Well he didn't get a bonus check because the direct deposit is still messed up but corporate was quick to take the loan out of his regular pay. It still wouldn't have been this bad if J had paid attention to his spending. I do all the bills and such and I told him we would be fine. I meant it as fine for bills but no extra spending. He thought just "fine." I checked our account balance the other day and we had enough for the rent that hadn't cleared and one small bill. But we still had two weeks of daycare to pay and we needed to live for seven days. I was horrified and totally blamed myself. (on phone with J) "I don't know how this happened, obviously I spent too much without realizing it." He says nothing, is just pissed. Luckily we had our credit card to pull from. As much as I hate paying the "cash advance" interest that's better then a payday loan company or OD charges from the bank. And we didn't have to take much really. Anyway I got back to work and looked at our account. IT WASN'T ME!!!! J had taken $120 out of the atm over the last few days. We would have been FINE if he hadn't done that. So now I'm not spending any money since we don't have any. And through it all, after I told him how much we needed for the bills and such he goes and takes out another $20 last night. DUMB FUCKING BASTARD. He just doesn't get it. He sees a balance but never stops to think, "wait Bon said we had NO extra money, maybe a bill hasn't cleared yet."

But that's the ONLY drama. I'm not being bitchy about it, just smug. Like "yeah, it's not just ME that wastes money around here."

Once we get his bonus check and get back on track next payday all will be well and his ass is getting a cash allowance and no debit card access.

Little J is going to "run with the black belts" today. It's a beautiful day out. I was gonna take him to see Cars, but of course the money situation. I'm going to take him weekend after next, since we have a Karate event next Saturday as well.

Work is going well, but the branch is short handed. This week I got an hour of actual overtime. I only get paid for 38 but I have been working 40 or more. I get paid for the 2 hours the following pay check (we're paid up to date. If we work less then 38 or more, it gets added or deducted from the following pay period) I believe they have filled both positions so we'll be fully staffed next month.

I guess I better wake J. I made him take a nap so he wouldn't have a melt down.......

I don't think there is anything cuter

then when little kids sing.

I was watching CMT and little crawled into bed with me. I got up and all of a sudden he belted out the chorus to "Jesus Take the Wheel" I almost died. of course unless you were there you probably don't get just how cute it was.


Work is great. Work is easy. Isn't that awesome?

I got invited to a party tomorrow. Gotta love that. Someone actually likes me enough to go out of her way to invite me. ( she's from the branch I trained at )

Talk about a good Monday.

Yesterday was my chore day but I still have a few loads of laundry left. J did a load of dishes and a few loads of laundry. (WOW) He didn't fold or put away but at least he dried.

NOTHING going on. Talk about boring. Work Work Work. But at least I like it.

J went in to do inventory but we took a little nap before he left. I forgot how nice it is to fall asleep all tangled together. It's been a long time. Not that we don't snuggle or anything but we always de-tangle and creep to our "sides" of the bed.

Now it's back to bed for me. J is off so I have to take the little J to school. At least I don't have to be in until 8am.

It's raining, it's pouring, why isn't little J snoring???

We were gonna go to darlene's after karate, but she said it looked like rain over there. My side of town was as sunny as could be but NOT anymore. The clouds and thunder are rolling in and I am so glad that I decided to come home for lunch after Karate, instead of going shopping. I would hate to be stuck in a downpour. Especially since I don't have power locks. I'd get soaked just trying to get the doors unlocked.

We had leftover pizza for lunch and little J is taking a rest.

I am gonna work on some of the things I am making for my BF. I got some basics on clearance at W*l M*rt(name brand too!!!) They didn't have much 0-3 months, but I was able to get a 3 pack of sleep n' play suits and a 3 pack of onesies for $10. I thought that was a pretty good deal since they're usually at least $8. I wanna go to the mall and see if they have any clearance stuff. Last year they had tons but now that I actually need it they haven't put it on sale yet.

OMG it's POURING. J came in and said, "it's raining on my side of the room!!!"
Too funny.

I think I'll get started before the rain makes me sleepy......

You know what I hate?

The fact that I have to get up early just to get little J ready for school on the days that J takes him. And then again why am I ever taking him, since it's completely out of the way.

It really pisses me off that it's just expected. This morning I asked J if he was taking him. His reply "if he's ready" WTF??? Why don't you help him get ready........

I could complain forever about it but I won't.

In other news......

The new branch is just fine. They are BUSY, but the day flies by and I love that. Everyone is just as nice as the last branch, just A LOT less silly. No one talks or laughs much during work hours.

Between work and karate I have been too busy. I don't like it. I hate feeling rushed all the time and especially getting home at 7pm. We scramble for dinner and to get little J in bed by eight. The only time I can really run errands is the weekend and those are my days off. You think J offers to do anything on his days off????

Oh well. Gotta run.

Summer has arrived

Holy cow, it's HOT.

Yesterday it really got to little J. An hour into being out and about he said wasn't feeling well and looked miserable. I was sweating like a man, which is disgusting. Luckily we didn't HAVE to be out so we came home. He had a nice rest in front of his fan and was his usual self again.


Like the moron I am......

Yesterday I went to Super W*l m*rt. On a Saturday. On Memorial day weekend. ALL FOR A JAR OF HAIR GREASE. Target doesn't carry the kind the boys use so I figured since I was already out I'd stop by. MAN ALIVE!! I wanted to shoot myself. Or abandon the grease and leave. But since I was already there and if I didn't get it I'd just be there today, I stood in line. Surprisingly I got out quickly.

We're up to nothing today. Just doing laundry. And eventually we'll walk down to get the paper. We should probably do that now as it'll be 200 degrees this afternoon.

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I just had to share, lol.

My dad's a damn genius!

Mom made me alter her jeans and while I was rummaging through my bin of sewing stuff (how unorganized everything in one freaking bin) I mentioned I needed a spool bin/bobbin holder. I know I can buy one but I don't wanna spend a lot of money (no not even $6-10) and I buy coats and clark brand and most containers are made for cone spools or the long thin ones (what's the name of those) Soooo. Long story short. Dad made me one. Out of a piece of Styrofoam and some skewers. He cut each skewer into thirds and stuck them into the Styrofoam. No I just pop my spool and the coordinating bobbin on top and I am good to go. Best of all, it only cost me a $1.50!!! I love my dad!

I should be sleeping

In answer to jamie's shoe question. They are surprisingly very comfortable. I wore them to niece's HS graduation and dinner afterward (about 7 hours straight) and they were fine. That's amazing to me. Another reason to love em!!!!


Last night was Parent's Night Out at Karate. We decided to see the d* vinci c0de. I read the book. so the movie wasn't as great, for me, since I knew what was going to happen. I went to it with an open mind because I knew it would be different then the book and I really enjoyed it. Most times I end up hating movies if I read the book first. We didn't get dinner this time since the movie was 2.5 hours and it didn't start until 9pm.

Little J had a blast, as he always does, but was too tired to get up for today's lesson. I don't blame him, I'm pretty tired myself. He didn't wake up until 9am, which is two hours later then usual. I don't think we'll do belt graduation in June. I don't want him to go to the next belt just because he has the required classes. I want him to be able to get the form and do his kicks properly. Because of my job I haven't been able to take him to the usual three classes per week and it shows. I know he will be sad not to get his next belt it but he shouldn't move up just because he can. Would I want him to go first grade just because he showed up to kindergarten, but didn't grasp the lessons as well as he could?

Both my cousins had their baby girls, and I don't have ANY pictures!!!! How mad am I that I don't get to see them? Both cousins now have two girls and I can only imagine how busy they must be. I am sure I will see pictures soon.

My BF is still ok as of two weeks ago. I didn't call her last weekend while my parents were here. I think she is a lot less nervous now since she is about 30 weeks or so. As every week passes I breathe a sigh of relief that she hasn't gone into labor. I still haven't found a bassinet, but I did find a pack N play that was smaller and still had the bassinet top. I might get her that if all else fails, since she might get more use out of it. But for now I am still looking for a bassinet. I have made her a few blankets and the bag I made her is TOO cute. Her son's birthday is next week, so I need to get to the store for a little gift.

But above all I need to take a damn shower......

I remember now

The other good/bad.

I went to register Litte for kindergarten on Thursday. I finally got out of the house by noon and guess what? It was the last day of school and early release at that. What a zoo that was and there was NO parking. I had to park in a sand pit and both of us had sandals on......

But we're all set for school this fall, well early august.

A few good, a few bad

I bought an awesome pair of shoes the other day. I have been on a quest to find the perfect summer sandal and I was finally rewarded at sears, for the low low price of $14.99. I don't know what was more exciting, how good they looked on my feet or the price.

Notice that Little J had to insert his foot in the photo as well, and that you can't take a good shot of your own foot.




I was able to sign Little up for swim lessons. I decided to do the Monday and Wednesday night classes. He would normally go to Karate on these days but I am still working by the time his class starts, so we now go to Karate on Tuesday and Thursday. Yes I know what a crazy full schedule, but swim is only 4 weeks. Anyway here's the bad to that. I got the class info in the mail today and they have him signed up for Tuesday AND Thursday. So now I have to call and have them switch and hope the class is actually open.

There was something else that had a good/bad story but Little started talking to me and I lost my train of thought, damn!

I need to go to w*lm*rt before Karate so I guess I should get moving.

Oh and James had the cold from hell, again. This time I think he got it from the pool. How gross.

So if you're wondering

I'm still alive.

Mom and Dad drove straight through and got here Wednesday, early evening. We had lots of fun, did lots of stuff, and they left this morning. I still have tomorrow off, so I'm not sure what we'll do (little and I)

Dad was horrified at how slow my computer was running so he went out and bought memory. I had no idea. If I had I would have done it a LONG time ago. Now it zips along at a "normal" speed. Before it was ridiculously slow. He also wanted to buy me a new chair but I wouldn't let him. He already spent too much on us. Besides the memory he also bought ink for my printer, among other things. But we did treat them to dinner and lunch when we went out, even though he tried to pay.....

Yesterday we had J's Niece's HS graduation. It was surprisingly fast and we went out to eat afterward.

My house is clean, the laundry is done and now we're going shopping. I don't need much, just a few groceries and such.

It's almost time for bed, are you kidding me????

I can't believe it's 7 freaking 30!

My "mentor" and I disussed when I would go to my real branch. She though I should go when I got back from vacation, what she didn't realize was that it's a friday and the one before Memorial Day (when banks are closed) no less. She has been getting pressure from the branch because they are seriously short handed. But I told her I wasn't comfortable going on a friday, since everyone keeps telling me how crazy busy they are. She is the type that does as told and was nervous about it. So I got on the phone with my training manager and asked what she thought. She agreed that I shouldn't start that friday or even that Tuesday, as it would be too busy and the teller manager at the real branch wouldn't have time to help me if I needed anything. So I start Wednesday the 31st.

Mom and Dad will get here sometime Thursday afternoon, so J sr and I are gonna send the little one to school and spend the morning together. Now that I work we won't have days off together unless J can somehow (by the grace of God) get a weekend day off! Once they get here we don't have a real agenda. I'll have to get on that. I think we may go to Seaworld or maybe Busch Gardens but I'll wait and see what they think.

Ohhhh. The cap n gown pictures I had taken on Saturday are even cuter then the school ones. I couldn't believe what a deal that was!!!! I got a his class picture today and talked to the Director about vacation. FREE! Sweeeet!

I think we're getting back to normal life. I thought the bad luck would never end. It's nice to have something go our way FINALLY!

I guess I ought to give the little boy a bath.

No sleeping in for me

Usually I sleep until 10 or later on Sundays. Little J turns on cartoons, grabs a yogurt and a juice box and plays on our bed. This morning he was especially needy and kept waking me up. So here I am but still in my jammies. It's a beautiful day and I'll get moving in a little while.

I have got to ask about daycare "tuition" for the time Little J is off. He gets one week free, but the week we're taking isn't a true week. He'll be off thurs-thurs. So I am not sure how that'll turn out. I am really hoping it'll end in our favor. The director is one of the nicest woman (actually the whole administrative staff is awesome) so I think she'll work with us. I'll gladly accept even half off the normal payment.

I am going to be really sad to leave their center. They have been wonderful and Little J has learned so much. I am glad he will be staying with them over summer. I also really like the "Christian" environment/learning. Everyone knows I don't go to church but that doesn't mean I don't believe or want little J to learn about God. I think I may look into private school once I get settled into my job and we figure out the mess that buying a house is.

I got my new checks yesterday and it's the first time I have used a check register in almost 2 years. I am not sure how long it'll last. I definitely won't use it to log in debit purchases since I have the benefit of on-line banking. As soon as we use the card it shows, so it's really easy to "balance" and I haven't done that either. I just make sure we have enough money and then do daily updates on our available balance. Working at a bank has really made me less anal about the account. I used to balance every day and get really pissed when J would forget to tell me about a purchase. Thank goodness for online banking!!!!!

I'd done with my tea and now seems a fine time to get in the shower.

I'm alive but barely

The car is fixed but in the end it did end up costing only a little less then the dealer quote, which really sucks. We had to spend the whole bonus check and now we're scrimping until J's payday. I get paid on Monday but that'll be for bills. I only work three days next week and 1 the following week so I have to be careful of what I spend.


Little J had Pre-K graduation and it was the cutest thing ever. It was really dark and my flash isn't that strong so most of the still shots didn't come out. I tried to "fix" them on Snapfish but they look even worse. Tomorrow I am taking him to get his cap n gown photo's. We are going to Portrait Innovations (thanks Darlene) They have a $10 package and you get the photo's the same day.

I bought tons of new clothes with the gift card mom sent and by the time I was done I still had plenty left over so I made Big J buy a few shirts ( we both needed clothes) and even after that I still had $60. We got really good deals on everything!Both my sister's sent me target gift cards so I bought some casual clothing, ya know for the weekends.

I sent my mom flowers for M-day and we bought J's mom a potted tulip (it smelled really good, I didn't know tulips smell) a candle warmer and a candle ( she really admired mine last time she was here) We felt bad that we couldn't afford more but it's the thought that counts, right?

Mom and Dad will be here next week, so I stocked up on new towels (JC Penney had their annual 50% off sale) I've made plans for what we'll do but all Mom wants is to go to ST Augustine again, Dad wants to go to Golf museum and Big J wants to go to Universal. Will we fit it all in????? Not to mention his niece has HS graduation on the 23rd.

Work is going really well. I am mostly on my own and their are only a few situations that I need help with, but that's mostly because it's done differently then how I did it before. I am not sure when I will go to my own branch but I am guessing a week after I come back from vaction. The other girl that was training at the same branch has already been "released" but I think that's because her trainer is less "nervous" mine still hovers over me and it drives me crazy. And then if I ask one question I get a step by step for the whole transaction, which is really annoying. But all in all she's really awesome.

I've got more shopping to do ( we had to come home for a reast) but at least the house is clean. Really clean, sweeeet.

after a short time out

OMG. I can't find five minutes.....

The "new" car is still being fixed. I get mad just thinking about it so I won't go into detail. We did take it to the dealership and the quote came back at $1500. HOLY CRAP. We took it to the place we bought it since we don't have that kinda money. It'll still cost us but alot less.

So we've been sharing the KIA again. Oh boy is it a pain. I can't get anything done.

It's stormy here and I am loving it.

I wanted to go look for the bassinet today but alas I have no car (J's was supposed to be done but so far the bastards haven't returned our calls, even though they told us it would be done at 4:30)

Work is going really well. There are still some things that I am unsure of but it's SO easy and the people I am currently working with are really nice. I am glad I held out for a job with them because so far I only see good things. I am glad to be back in the banking world and can't wait to get settled into my branch. I should be there in about 2 weeks.

And that's it. I have laundry to wash and the kitchen needs cleaned. Not to mention James needs to practice his schoolwork and karate. Who ever said I would make a good working mother?????????

Happy Birthday To Me

So who was the first person to wish me Happy Birthday? None other then Darlene. She called me at like 7:30 on wednesday. And even though the J's had been up since seven I guess they forgot or something.

Mom sent me two dozen GORGEOUS roses and a gift card. James took me to dinner and made me an AWESOME 3 layer chocolate cake with raspberry (my favorite) filling. OMG is the cake good! I got some cards from friends and family and had a nice day.




Work is going well. I am on my own now but still in training. I think I do this for about 2 weeks then go to my branch. I really like the people I am working with now and I don't really want to go to the other branch.

I have been super busy and hadn't had time to relax all week. I am working on this months budget/bills and I have a few sewing projects to finish up, not to mention I need to clean the apt before it's condemmed! :)

I can't believe it's 8:30

I woke up at 7:30 and I feel like I've gotten nothing done.

I went to Target to get some basics and then did a few loads of laundry.

J took my car to work because I want him to drive his as little as possible until we can figure a way to get it fixed. I hate that the fuel door can't be opened manually. Cadillac should re-think that feature.

So anyway. We stayed home.

I got to work on some baby stuff for my friend. She has nothing and the baby could come any day. I offered her our infant car seat and stroller. Later this week I am going to go to some consignment shops and see if they have any decent bassinets. I hate that she has to have used stuff but I don't have money to buy new, and in the end it's not my responsibility. So far I have made her one crib quilt, one receiving blanket, a taggy blanket and a large tote bag, all in Bonnie fashion so the only thing that is perfect is the bag. I am going to make her 2 more crib quilts. Not that the baby will sleep under them but they are nice to lay her on if they are outside or on the floor. I used only stash material, so at least I didn't spend any more money.

I guess I should iron my work clothes. Tuesday and Wednesday I have "class" but the rest of the week I am at my training branch, which I am really going to hate to leave......

Forget the icing, this one TAKES the cake

J can not open his fuel door. Whatever the fuck-ups fucked up also disengaged his remote keyless entry thing and the dash control for his fuel door. HE CAN'T GET GAS.

And he does not want to take back to the fuckups less they fuck it up any further. It's not as thought their warranty was great but it was better then nothing. But if they can't even do the damn job why waste the time.

We are going to call the REAL Cadillac dealership on Monday and see what they say. We can't afford to fix the whole problem but I am willing to shell out the few hundreds bucks it'll cost for them to look at it and hopefully fix the fuel door. If not the car is not drive-able and the only thing we can do is take it back to the people who offer "full-service" but don't know what they are doing. Red flag should have been when they had to take it somewhere else to get the alignment done. If we take it back to them I can guarantee that it will have to be there for at least a week and that's just not possible. Well it is but we'll have to leave really early in the morning.

Please cross your fingers that this will cost no more then $500 because that's all I have, and I technically don't really have it. I'd say at this point "I'm robbing Peter to pay Paul."

The Icing on the cake

I got my period last night.

I need pants. Lane Bryant has none. Why don't they carry them? They have 10 thousand different crops, goucho's and linen blends but no classic dress pants. Well let me correct that they have them just not in my size, in any color (and not online either) The sales woman told me to try back in the fall. She was not rude or anything but hello I need em now.....

We were supposed to go to the butterfly festival but J was not behaving. He didn't throw a fit, but could not listen worth a damn. Since it was nap time I decided we just needed to come home. He is sound asleep and I still have a million things to do. I should have tried to prepare myself for the whirlwind my life becomes when I work FT. I don't have time to get anything accomplished.

I bought new fish food and the pop top broke. Grrrr. So I had to open it with a damn can opener.

It looks and feels like rain and J's windows don't work, fucking great.

What is going on????

But in better news I got an offer to refinance the new car. Not that it needs to be refinanced but if that means that BUTTWIPE won't get the interest $$ I will gladly use another company. I am faxing the final paperwork on Monday.

I need to take a breather, but first I have to call Darlene.

Friday Five

Can’t Get Enough of Your Love Baby

1. Who was your first kiss (your mom does not count)?Well it's not like you'd know him. It was my 13th birthday and we snuck some boys over, but not inside the house or anything.
2. What is your idea of the perfect date? not being "somewhere" I don't really want to go out to eat or to the movies. I'd rather be somewhere quiet. The beach, the park, the corner coffee shop....
3. What music needs to be on when you are “getting your thang on”? We don't have music on
4. What is the most amazing experience you’ve ever shared with a partner? Corny as it sounds, I knew when I got pregnant. The exact moment.... Now was that amazing to him, probably not.
5. Sex is best saved for: love, marriage, alcohol, days that end in “y”? all of the above but not for me..... I'd say Sex is best saved for the unmarried, childless (and using birth control, lol)couple.

The Friday Five

I have never been so angry

The new car's ac went out 7 days after we bought it (it's a used car but come one) James took it in yesterday and left it there all day. When he went to pick it up they had yet to figure out the cause of the problem and had screwed up the WHOLE electrical system. The power windows, lock, radio and interior lights now don't work. The windows are half down. I was furious that we'd have to bring the car back yet again. I called the manager of the dealership, who is also the owner. I told him what was going on and asked what he could do about it. he told me there was nothing he could do and I'd need to call back in the morning to talk with the service manager. He wasn't nice at all and I was shocked that he didn't even apologize for the inconvenience. I told him I didn't appreciate the way he was speaking to me or the handling of the situation. He then told me "I just have one of those tones" He said some more bullshit then asked why I took the car if it wasn't fixed, "you probably told them you JUST HAD TO HAVE IT TODAY" Yes sir I do need the car. He then replied "that's what the public transportation system is for." ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?????? Are didn't say that but I did tell him that was completely uncalled for and ridiculous. He then said I insulted him 3 times and hung up. I insulted him? He sells me a car and then tells me ride the bus? I didn't buy a fucking car to ride the bus. I didn't buy another car just because I wanted to.

I am still angry about the conversation and there is nothing I can do. J told me I just had to get over it. How the hell do you get over the manager of a company basically telling you he wasn't concerned. I guarantee that had it been a normal dealership I wouldn't have been treated like shit. "I've been in business 39 years mam" Yeah and you have 16 BBB complaints filed against you. Obviously he needs to take a customer service class.......


And then J couldn't sleep this morning so he's already left for work. "Do you mind taking Little J to daycare?" Oh no J I don't mind driving the opposite direction I need to go. I don't mind having to leave early to do it......

Not my day at all.

She tagged all but none

So I am posting it, besides there is NOTHING on tv.....

(from Darlene)
1. when was the last time you went to the bathroom outside? Ummm. Like 6 or seven years ago. I was locked out of my mom's house after a long night of drinking. What was a girl to do?
2. when was the last time you saw your parents? Mom; Nov. 2005. Mom and Dad together;August 2005
3. which family member do you most resemble? I can't decide. I have my mom's "shape" and my dad's "features" but most say I look like dad.
4. do you own your own bible? Yes
5) do you wear deodorant? Of course
6. do you clean up nice? I'd like to think so!
7. when was the last time you tripped and fell ? Last year working at the bank. My heel got caught in the chair leg and I did a somersault into my coin vault. It was the funniest damn thing ever and I wish I had it on tape. (it was too low on the ground for the security cameras to get it.
8. where was the last place you slept besides your home? Ummm... a hotel when I went to see Mom and sister's in NC
9. what are you listening to right now? clothes dryer
10. have you ever started an uncontrollable fire? No, but my nephew did about 10 years ago (with a sparkler) and we had to call the fire dept. It burnt down quite a bit of my mom's backyard. (but she has almost an acre so it wasn't close to the house.)
11. ever run out of gas on the road? No, knock on wood, but I did run out right as I pulled in the driveway (8 yrs ago)
12. would you rather cut the grass or rake the leaves? I like both, but that's because Dad had an awesome riding lawn mower and I wasn't forced to do it. I liked raking in the fall so I could play in the leaves....
14. what is the last thing you downloaded on your computer? Picasa2
15. last time you swam in a pool? November when we went to North Carolina
16. have you ever been in a school play? No, but I did participate in the talent show twice.
17. how many kids do you want? I'd like two but if that's impossible then one is just fine.
18. music you dislike most?HEAVY metal
19. you registered to vote? yes
20. you have cable? Basic
21. ever prank call anybody? I think so, but the details are fuzzy, it might have been my cousins friend doing the actual calling.
22. would you go bungee jumping or sky diving? NO
23. do you have a garden? No, But I have a lot of spider plants growing on my back porch
24. whats your favorite comic? Don't read em.
25. bath or shower? morning or night? Shower, morning. Bath, night
26. best movie you’ve seen in the past two weeks? I haven't been
27. best pizza topping? black olives
28. peanuts or popcorn? popcorn
29. have you ever smoked? yes
31. chocolate bar? Milky Way
32. when was the last time you voted at the polls? Last November
33. when was the last time you ate a home grown tomato? Since I grew them in MS (yeah on my backporch)
34.are you good in bed? Well I wouldn't say I am a porn star!
35. ever order anything from infomercial? No
36. sprite or 7-up? Sprite
37. have you ever had to wear a uniform to work/ school? Yes, fast food jobs, and the casino.
38. ever thrown up in public? Yes but quietly in a bathroom stall.
39. would you prefer being a millionaire or find true love? Since I already found my true love can I get the money now???
40. do you believe in love at first sight? 100%
41. who was the last person you visited in a hospital? No one in the last 5 years at least.
42. did you have alot of hair as a baby? I don't recall but I'm leaning towards no since I barely have a lot of hair now.
43. what do you think about most? Currently, my new job
44. favorite form of traveling? airplane
45. if you could have one magical power what would it be? I'd love to be able to stop time.