I still have a headache but I have no idea why. I've never had one that lasted for more then a few hours.

I was the only cashier at work and I like it that way. I don't get sent to stock and I don't have to listen to other people talk about their lives. (don't get me wrong, sometimes I like these stories) But it still doesn't make me want to stay there any longer then I have to.

We made it to Hobby Lobby and all their paper was on sale. The stacks of paper are $2 cheaper then Joann's which made the deal even sweeter. I Want to go back for more, but I don't think they'll have any. I took the last ones of what I wanted and I doubt they've restocked it since last night, but I could be wrong.

I am waiting for my phone service to be connected. Today was the day but it's still not on. How hard is it to flip the switch or press a key????? Not that I have anyone to call but still, lol.

James has been helping me with my SB pages. He is really creative and that is SO helpful. Now I just need Darlene's help in choosing embellishments. I am really excited about it. I am not going crazy and buying tons of stuff though. I just took out my favorite photo's and bought paper accordingly (it's on sale this week) And then I will just to one layout at a time.

Just when I am at the end of my rope

Two people from work are leaving for better jobs. Although I like both of them they were slacking off immensely the last couple of days and I got the short end of the stick each time. As I was stocking (which I hate) I could hear them yapping away and I really felt I couldn't take one more day in that hellhole. Screw the 15% off!

James decided to grill out (so he went and bought a grill) He made ribs that were to die for and better then any restaurant (that I have eaten at) That cheered me up a bit. And then the bank HR woman called me back to say she has 4 FT positions opening and will call me next week with the exact locations and hours, and that I would then do the interview.

Somehow I have lost 5 pounds. Which I truly believe to be a miracle because all I did was change my diet slightly. The Dr said minimum of 10 to 20 so I am halfway/quarter there depending on how I feel, lol. What a good ending to a bad couple days!

Karate is going much better. Last Sat. James took him but said the instructor (who I complained to) didn't have Little J spar the big kids, as long as that lasts I'll keep taking him on Saturdays. The other two days a week he is in class with kids his own size and ability.

We did not meet up with Darlene today but I did get to talk to her for 5 minutes! I decided that I need a land line phone now that I have a friend (well one I actually care to talk to on the phone) Service should be hooked up tomorrow, so I'll actually be able to talk on phone without fear of using all my cell minutes.

Now I think I am gonna go to HobLob and AC Moore. I want to look at a few things they have on sale.....

Here's what I wanna know

Do ya'll not remember my URL and then search for random things you remember me speaking about. For instance googling "Dryer Sheets, Bounce Scent" "fate, tire" or "target Clearance" or are complete strangers really searching for information like this? Weird.....

Today was not very productive. Instead of going to w@lm@rt to do all my shopping I actually went here and there and everydamnwhere. I see now why people add match at W@lM@rt!!!! Tar get had laundry soap and "Dryer Sheets, Bounce Scent" on sale for $3 each. SWEET! And then W!nn D!xie had grapes on sale. But I came home with nothing else on my list.

After I picked up the boy we went shopping, grabbed lunch and went to Karate. We picked up a pizza and James from work so he could have the car (it's an open to close shift) now we're hanging out. Little J is making a picture out of foam shapes and I am nursing a really bad headache.

The other Job I had (the polygraph test) called today to talk about hours. I had listed I was available 8-5, which is already 45 hours a week. She asked if it was possible to work as late as 8 pm and come in at 7:30. UMmm yeah right. I don't mind the 7:30 or the 50 hours I'd be working but working 60 or more, NO WAY. She said it would only be for a few weeks but we all know how that ends up. A few weeks turns into forever and even if I wanted to I can't. I am not going to spend every waking moment working and letting someone else take care of my son. I want more money but not that badly! The condo job is still an option, so I am still hopeful. I told my current manager that I would go full time, well 35 hours, if he'd give me a dollar raise. He said he'd put in for it but it's not likely to happen. He said they're allowed pay scale tops out at $6.50, which is what I make. But the other girl I work with said she makes $7, and she got hired at the same time. Was she lying? He said they base it on years of experience. I have 10 yrs. experience! All I have ever done is cashier and I have been working since I was 14. Maybe I need to include burger king and wendy's on my resume, lol....... So anyway I am hoping that something works out for me. I want to keep James in school over the summer but we can't afford an extra $400 a month if I am not working a real job.

I need to get some medicine for my headache, it HURTS!

Clean at last

James' bedroom looked like a tornado blew through it. No matter how often I clean it, he just won't keep up with it. New rule: Next toy Mom puts away goes in the Goodwill bin. It's now spotless, less a lot of stupid happy meal toys, and I fixed the curtain rod that he accidentally (twice) pulled out of the cheap ass drywall. J sr. wanted me to switch his bed around because he sleeps in it the wrong way. J sr. figures if it's the same direction as his old bed he'll sleep properly. I don't really care how he sleeps just as long as he does! So to do that I had to move everything around. The bed is huge. A twin size car bed takes up too much space. Besides that he has his (outside) little tykes playhouse my mom bought and J sr won't get rid of, a little walmart dresser and bookshelf, a desk, a kids size adarondak table w/ 2 chairs, a rocking horse a 3 drawer plastic bin and one of those shelves that hold three rows of plastic bins. The only child is SPOILED. It wasn't so bad before but turning the bed made the room appear smaller, even though everything is still flat against each wall. Weird.

That took a couple of hours to complete. Besides that I read the newspaper and clipped coupons, did a load of dishes and laundry. I can't believe it's 4:30 already.

James is working a mid so I am not sure when he'll get home. He thought they would be busy since TPC (The player's championship, golf) is not too far from them. YEAH right. I assume they'd be eating at the country club, or any surrounding fancy restaurant. But anyway, if he's not busy he'll be here around 8:30. He has to work Open to close tomorrow. I hate that BS.

The kid and I somehow got invited to his brother's fraternity BBQ. I guess he knows J has to work. I don't mind going but I think I'll feel funny without James with me, KWIM. I don't do well with strangers and I can't expect his brother to hover over us as J would.

My newspaper is all over the place. Guess I should clean that up and finish folding my laundry.

It's been a long day

The NACA home seminar was very informative. I am not sure James and I will particpate, but not because we found fault with the program. I don't want to rush into things.....

I just got back from Build A Bear. We had fun but it was crazy busy and I was experiencing sensory overload. We met up with Darlene and AJ, and her husband came along. After BAB We hung out in the foodcourt while the kids ate. I had a good time and Darlene's husband couldn't be nicer. Very laid back, which is awesome. They were having a family day so I tried to get going without James throwing too big of a fit. He cried but got over it by the time we got on the road. I had some minor shopping to do but chose to come home instead. I drove James to work so we'll be getting up to get him later this evening. I thought he was going to drive himself but he thought I had things to do (isn't that nice)

I have a few loads of laundry that didn't get folded. (it takes our dryer longer then normal per load) and then I need to clean the kitchen. Not bad considering how messy it normally is.

Hey James bear sounds funny. God please don't let me have a defective music box in him.....

I wanna make something

I am feeling creative but I don't have anything to do.

I cleaned our bathroom, took a shower, and did a few loads of laundry. We've eaten lunch and I am gonna put james down for a nap in a few. He's being really loud and it's starting to get to me.

I am making a pot roast for dinner. I'll start that around 3. I haven't made one in the crockpot that tastes as good as my oven cooked ones, so I've given up on it. It does come in handy for boiled peanuts though, lol. And it'll be good for cider this fall. Yeah I am thinking ahead.

I'm gonna go through my fabric and find something to make. Even if it kills me, lol!

and an even better day today.

I didn't feel like getting up this morning, so James drove himself to work. I got up to realize we have a half roll of toilet paper. GREAT! Talk about rationing!

Then little J locked my bedroom door (he's not in there) and there is no key (well you know those little flat thingies) I'm in my underwear so it's not like I could call maintanance. I finally got it open with James cooking thermometer. Everything else was too big for the hole.

Then the dr. called me to say the surgery center (HSG TEST) has no available appts for this week, so we'll have to do it next month. But she's on vacation next month around the time that I might get my next cycle so we'll have to do it in MAY! WTH....
So James can take his sweet ass time getting his done, which he is not looking forward to. We're hoping that just by charting a bit better and using and Ovulation kit we'll get lucky. I am still sticking to the hope that we were just not "doing it" at the right time of month, and not enough. lol.

This months cycle is gone. I only had it for a total of two days. CRAZY. Normally (even when it's irregular) it's 4 days and 1 day spotting.

I have laundry to do. I cleaned yesterday because Darlene came over. Which I had fun putting together the little scrapbook. It turned out really cute, now it just needs pictures. We got lunch and ran to Joann's. The day flew by, it's amazing how fast it goes. Before we knew it, it was 5:30. I am definatley gonna have fun starting a scrapbook. Darlene has so many cool accessories. I am gonna pick up a few little things but since I only worked two days this week my spending money is a lot less then usual.

Now onto my laundry.....

Starting off on the wrong foot

I went to get my blood drawn this morning. All went fine, she was able to get three vial, which for me is a near miracle. Yesterday I had missed my dr's call so I just wrote down my questions and was going to leave them for her. She got in right as I was leaving so we were able to talk. As I was talking to her and trying to make James behave, the nurse came in because she forgot to ask me when I got my period. It HAS to be CD 3 blood. Well I fritzed and told her Wednesday, which means I am on CD 2. As they both looked horrified I got even more frazzled and said, "but I know I made the appt for day 3" They looked annoyed but told me to come back in the morning. As I was talking to the receptionist I realized my period came Tuesday. Today WAS CD 3, and I had just confused the days. Shit. The nurse had to take my vials out of the bio-hazard bucket. I felt really stupid and I am sure she was annoyed beyond belief. I have to schedule my HSG for next week. I also asked the Dr to run tests for PCOS. She looked at me funny and said she thought I already had those tests done by my primary care physician (I don't have one). Unless she did the tests in November I haven't because I didn't have a problem until now and she is the only Dr. I see.

Now we have the big decision about what happens if we really are infertile as opposed to just a little out of whack. I don't think we can afford to pay for the treatments out of pocket. And definitely not something expensive like IVF. I feel stuck and hope I don't have to make this decision.

In other news.

Darlene is on her way, YAY! It's chilly and rainy so we'll stay close to home I think. I can't wait to get started!

I hate titles, really I do.

Last night I started my cycle. Not only is this upsetting because it's another month that we're not PG, but now we have to start testing 2 weeks ahead of what I planned. The Dr. prefers James' test to be done and in her office before the HSG, but that is not gonna happen. I have my labs tomorrow morning, and the HSG is to be scheduled between CD 6-11. With it being the weekend we lose 2 days and then James' work schedule does not allow for his test. My dr. won't be in while I am having my blood drawn (she doesn't get in that early) but I put in message for her to call me, hopefully she will. Since I have only seen her three times and for regular visits I am not sure how she responds, KWIM?

So are you wondering about the poly-graph test I had this morning? At 7:30 my phone rang and it was the office saying they needed to reschedule. Fine, fine, now let me go back to sleep. I think Monday is the only day I can do it, since Little J is outta school and James works. Also the background people called and said they can't get through to the casino, which makes me wonder if the number changed. I explained the dilema of the hurricane. (makes it hard for me to give info, because I have no idea what has changed) Hopefully they'll work it out. She asked if I had the number of anyone I worked with, to verify employment. And all I have is James, but they won't accept him........ I don't know what'll happen from here.

I called the bank becuase I saw a FT teller position listed. I wanted to confirm that it was actually available. She hasn't called back so she's next on my LONG list of phone calls.

It's chilly today. Which sucks because the whole day, well until karate at 4, is free. Little J wanted to go to Adventure Landing. I have no idea why he thinks he wants to go on a water slide (he's easily scared) I was thinking about taking him becuase they also have putt-putt and an arcade, but for the three of us to play one round of golf costs $20. It be cheaper to take him to Ollie's or the Chuckster.

They are getting their weekly haircuts, giving me quiet time to make all my phone calls. I am not sure what we'll do when they get back. I think I want to go to Copeland's for dinner. (That's where we went and it was awful) I really do like the restaurant and they sent us a $25 comp. I just hope their back on track and the food's ok again.

Tomorrow is my Darlene Day. I think I am actually gonna start calling it that! I am not sure what's gonna happen but I think some shopping is in the cards. And she's gonna help me with my mini scrapbook. I have also pulled some pictures to start a larger one. I think (with darlene's help) that I am just gonna start doing layouts, not in any certain order. I am not an orderly kinda girl. I just want my favorite pic's displayed. I love to think I am creative but I need a little help and Darlene's just the one to give it. I've seen photo's of some of her pages and they are so nice!

We have Karate tonight with the non-aggressive little kids! Thank goodness. I have decided that although I like instructors I don't like that they don't pay enough attention to certain areas, and that they allow this to keep happening. I really liked one of the instructors who has sinced moved to another school. He is no further then where we go now, so if worse comes to worse I will give him a call.

I am starting to get impatient for the Magnet school results. They said we'll know sometime in April. I want to know now!

I found an awesome Nature place by one of the school's we applied to. They are having a butterfly festival next month and I can't wait to go. I hope little J has as much fun as I want to!

This saturday I have a home loan "meeting." This company was recommened in an article I read and figured it didn't hurt to see what they're about. If you're thinking about buying a house check it out. http://www.naca.com/about_naca/100_index.pbl

I think the boys will be home soon so I better finish getting dressed. I need to find something other than this ratty old t-shirt to wear!

talk about out of shape

I noticed my legs hurt today and I couldn't figure out why. Well last night I did squats with little J. He has to do them every night for karate, along with sit-ups and push-ups. I only did 20 and I was sore. How sad is that?????

The dishes are screaming to be washed.......

I called the insurance company today and they will pay for any testing until an actual diagnosis of infertility is given. let's hope that we don't get to that point. Let's hope that it's my weight, or something else fixable. And can I tell my dr this so she won't give me a diagnosis too soon? Whatcha think????

Today we had Karate and James did really well. he is the only one is the "tiny tigers" class that is a camo belt, so when he does his form he's one-on-one with the instructor. I have decided that I only have a problem with Sparring on Saturdays when boxing boy comes to class. It's a "family" class so it's for all ages (even though he's only 6, he's a hellion) This saturday they told the kid 4 times to watch himself and he still punched like he was Mike Tyson. I have decided that we will just leave before sparring and of course I will tell them why.

James cell phone is all messed up so I am gonna take it to get fixed tomorrow. According to their website I am supposed to get repair for free, but a few months ago one of the hinges broke and they charged me to fix it. But maybe that was before they merged with another company and the repair plan changed. Let's hope they do it for free. As of right now it won't turn on, even though the battery is fully charged.

I switched my polygraph test to wednesday morning because James has a conference call at 5pm. If I am not here to intercept the kid things will be crazy. He doesn't know how to be quiet when we're on the phone (I remember being the same way as a kid)

Since little J is on spring break I think we will go play putt-putt on wednesday. he has never been but has been asking to go.

Thursday Darlene and I are gonna make some paper bag scrapbooks, among other things. She's got me interested so I may start a full size one sometime soon.

Time to get James' "work" ready for tomorrow. I don't know why James Sr can't get it out, as all I do is pull pages from his workbooks.....

Me busy?????

Tuesday:James didn't even bother taking the car to the dealership. Since they've been shady about most things why even waste the time. He got a used tire for now. Funny because I was once quoted as saying (in total disgust)"WHO would buy a USED tire?" It is recommended to change all 4 tires at once, which is why J chose to get a used tire, and the one he got is in better condition then the 4 we have now that were just purchased 12,000 miles ago :( We are going to get all new in a few months, along with an alignment just in case......Wouldn't want to get screwed again. But this time we're buying from Sam's Club. They have an awesome tire protection program.

My dr's appt went fine. We have begun the road to infertility treatment. But my Dr. seems to believe that my weight is the major factor, since it's the only thing that has changed since I had little J. She said losing at least 10 pounds might help my ovaries start functioning normally, but we have not done any of the major testing to see if that's actually the problem. At the start of my next cycle all the testing will begin. And that's just 2 weeks away so I better call my insurance to see what types of tests they will cover. She said they will not cover the test James needs to take so that's $100 out of pocket (and the car fund) so far. Of course he thinks it couldn't possibly be him that's the problem, lol.

I have begun the quest for weight loss. I don't eat much but when I do the portions are usually twice the serving size and not the healthiest things to be eating (IE Hamburger Helper) So I have been cutting the serving sizes. I eat 1/3 the recommended size. I have started eating breakfast and lunch as well. I cut out ALL fast food, sugary drinks, and other junk.

Wednesday: The boy's dental visits went fine. For some reason they didn't charge us for James' filling, so I am sure once it goes through insurance they'll bill us. It was nice to have the extra $50 for awhile though! Since James was off we took our usual drive downtown (I love driving around) He took me to see the "Treaty Oak" It's a HUGE oak tree and I believe the story goes that it was going to be cut down and a reporter made up some story about it being given to someone in some treaty, so it couldn't be removed. (I didn't read the history, I was too busy taking photo's, which I tried to upload but blogger is being stupid) Karate as usual.



Thursday: I applied for another job online and ten minutes later HR called me in for an interview. I scrambled to get ready but made it there with time to spare.(I was nervous about it taking to long since I had to get J Jr at one)I passed the personality test and I have a polygraph test(holy crap)on Tuesday. Of course I won't be lying but I may not get the job either. Not that I care too much if I don't. I also have another job option and I have to call the woman for that on Monday. Both pay well so I hope I at least get one of them.

We went shopping with Darlene. The usual Hobby Lobby, which reminds me I need a Sunday paper, and AC Moore, which is another craft store. They had a really cute Kid craft going on. Little baskets of gold (candy) for St Patrick's day. The girl helping with the craft was nutty and annoying but James and AJ had fun decorating them.

Friday: Hmmm. What happened? I worked by myself, which I kinda liked. No one could send me off to stock and it was quiet. After two days off I was tired and not in the mood to be chatty. Of course I was nice to the guests although some undeserving. I took J JR to B.A.M because their train table has more trains then B&N. Also it has been really quiet in there the last two time we have gone, which is nice. I don't like when stores have a lot of people in them. He was hungry so we ate at Taco Bell (He, not me) and then went to the beach to play on the playground until it was time to get James.

Saturday: Karate, And then we met up with Darlene and her friend at AC Moore. We had lunch and let the kids play. We met up at the mall across the street and by the time we got through Target the kids were getting nutty since they hadn't napped and it was almost 4pm. James threw a fit over a toy motorcycle so I left rather abruptly.

And now we're at today. I started this two days ago but had so much going on that I never got to finish it. I have a lot of cleaning to do and then I am going to go get a paper.

Damn car

I am SO sick of our car. And what is even more maddening is the fucking dealership. We bought new tires in Sept. 12,000 miles ago. And the back tire has a huge bulge and is worn down to the thready part (sorry I don't know the real word) The bitch at kia says we should have had our tires balanced and rotated twice already. (I find that hard to believe but I could be wrong) All I wanted to know was if I was going to be the one footing the bill. So far it appears I am and let me tell you I will not buy another fucking tire from them. The factory installed tires lasted for 38,000 miles (and I only had them rotated twice) and were not as worn out as this one. I am really angry about it and there's not a damn thing I can do besides be in a bad mood about it. A REALLY BAD MOOD!

Question of the day

Soooo I just got done with my bed linens and now I would like to take a survey.

We have 11 freakin pillows. 11!!!!!! Why do we have this many pillows. I use two and James uses three. That's six extra pillows taking up space. God forbid I ever try to get rid of any (unless I buy new to replace old) James would have a fit.

HOW MANY PILLOWS (not decorative throws) ARE ON YOUR BED COMPARED TO HOW MANY YOU ACTUALLY USE AT NIGHT. Leave me a comment, I am very curious........

What a pair

I was talking to my mom about the trip. I told her that it was 5.5 hours one way and she was horrified (seeing as she will already have been in the car for 15 hours) So as she was canceling the trip my Dad was in the background saying "Bonnie.....Goes this way....interstate....Shorter" The .... Are parts I couldn't hear because my mom was telling him to drop the subject (mom)"it's too long.....TOO LONG.....Not going.....LET ME ....TAKE CARE OF IT.....So anyway!" They crack me up. But at times it's frustrating because I am both of them combined!

Mom is not coming but she said something about coming down with dad. So as she doesn't know about our surprise {that may not happen} trip in may, she is already planning their trip down. I really want to go up so I can see EVERYONE in my family, but if I can't at least M&D will come down. I wonder when she wants to. I told them that from now on they should come in March since the weather is so much cooler.

It's Sunday and I have much cleaning to do. I did the backporch(big deal) and James' bathroom. I've been washing linens all morning. It never fails that every blanket in the closet must be used. I don't know why one blanket per person isn't sufficient. (I am guilty of it too. I get hot and reach for a thinner blanket, but don't do anything with the other one) James cleaned the kitchen so besides loading the dishwasher that's done. I guess I just have laundry, vacuuming, and our bedroom to clean up. Not to bad. I cleaned Little J's room (just a bit) It's not spotless but at least you can see the floor. We'll finish that up tomorrow.

He is coloring with his color wonder stuff and listening to the TV. It'll be nap time soon, and then I will be able to vacuum the living room.

I checked HOBLOB's sale add and they don't have anything I need on sale, but their Poster's are 1/2 off again. I want two more for Little J's room. Both maps. One world, one US w/ state capitals. I don't know that I have the wall space for them as he already has one whole wall filled with educational posters (like classroom ones) They also have some of their Easter stuff on sale. DARLENE wanna go? Lol!

"I have bad news and good news"

My mom called today and that's what she said. I couldn't imagine what was so important that she had to call me.

My aunt's father died and the funeral was today. He wasn't my grandfather but he didn't need to be for us to love him. He was the sweetest man I know and if he had been my grandfather I would have been a lucky girl. It is very sad but he was very sick and we all knew he wouldn't make it much longer.

The good news is. Mom's coming to visit in April. A friend of hers is driving to Pensacola and mom got the bright idea to drive along and then have me come pick her up. She had no idea that I'd have to drive ALL the way across state. I laughed and told her she might as well be in Mississippi. But I am going to get her. Even if it is a painfully long trip. I have been thinking about surprising James, like just picking him up from work with her in the car. But as we saw with the Seagrove trip a simple trip can turn into a nightmare for me, and I could be gone long past when he normally gets off. We'll see.

FUNNY YOU SHOULD MENTION DARLENE, I am going to Hobby Lobby later. I need another picture frame. I didn't like the way the clear looked on my print. But since it's not a necessity and James hasn't napped yet I might not make it.

Soooo

Thursday was a busy day. Darlene and I did some shopping and the kids had fun playing. I skipped the car appt because they told me unless it was actually cutting off at that moment there was nothing they could do. I wasn't gonna waste my whole afternoon so I gave up. Because I was so busy having fun with Darlene I was 30 minutes late getting James and he wasn't too happy about it, lol.

I was the only cashier at work yesterday and except for a few too many people calling things went fine. I did have an old bitch try to yell at me but I put a stop to it quick. You're not gonna scream in my face just because something out of my control has pissed you off. As soon as she saw I wasn't having it she backed off. I called the manager and let her deal with it.

I did all my grocery shopping, paid my bills, balanced the accounts and still have some money left over. Quite a bit in fact, until I realized I forgot about Karate. But it's still more then I thought we'd have. James has a dentist appt to get a filling replaced, so we'll have to pay our deductible on that, and then I have a dr's appt. That's $80 or so between the 2. Then I have the usual bills plus James wanted to pay off one of his CC's in full (it's one of the lower ones) So I really thought we'd be living on Ramen Noodles for two weeks. I was pleasantly surprised. And the best part is I have no desire to splurge on anything.

We have Karate in a few, I have to wash the car (drive thru this time) and then clean the house. I bought a new mop (remember James through mine away because it needed a new sponge but he thought it was just a crappy one) I got the EXACT same one, except this time I bought a replacement ahead of time. I did all my shopping and only spent $80. Awesome!

I guess I should get ready now.

Anything for free

I went here > www.beinggirl.com
even though I am not a prepubescent girl, just so I could get free samples of tampons. Lol

Here's the address directly to the free samples. http://www.startsampling.com/sm/7781/captureAddress.iphtml?item=7781&source=bg

Brandee

I forgot my login info for your blog, is there a way to pull it up for me?

This was my reply to your comment about my shopping. (I thought it sounded a bit sarcastic so I must tell you I didn't meant it to. I really don't know how you'll survive!)

Brandee: G'ville doesn't have a super WM??!!!! OMG how will you survive? I'd die.

I get all my meat from Winn Dixie and I try to wait for stuff to be BOGO and then I buy it for the month (since all the meat I buy goes on sale like that at some point each month) Publix has BOGO as well, but it's a very expensive store, even when stuff is on sale. You know G'ville isn't that far from ME! Yay!!!!!

Friday Five

1) 10 years ago what did you think you would be doing now? I never thought like that back then. I was too busy having fun.
2) Where do you think you will be in 5 years from now? Here, doing the same thing I am now. Except for that I hope there will be another child and a nice cushy bank job ;)
3) Do you live life one day at a time or look to the future. one day at a time
4) Do you wish you could go back in time and undo something in your life? Yep, do I need to say what? Oh wait that can be the next answer
5) If you could send a message back in time and give a younger version of yourself some advice, what would it be? Don't sleep with that married man, it TOTALLY wasn't worth it.


http://community.livejournal.com/thefridayfive/

real quick

I got ALL this meat for $35. I LOVE BOGO!
Real entry after I put all my groceries away.

My teeth hurt

But first, as we were getting ready to get groceries last night, Paula Deen was making "applesauce bread." I grabbed the recipe off FN's website and James made it for me. It is AWESOME. Not very "apple-y" but delicious none the less.

I had my dental cleaning today and though my teeth are VERY clean, they are a little sore. I really like our dentist but I don't think my teeth should hurt after a cleaning. They didn't with our other dentist.

James is going to his mom's to fix her door and I am going to the mall. How is that possible with one car you ask? I am going to walk. It's a lovely day and exercise is good. I would go to his mom's but she won't be there so no need.

We have karate tonight, so it's not going to be a very "fun" day off. I don't consider it "fun" unless we get to do something together that doesn't include W*lm*rt or W!nn D!x!e.

Tomorrow Darlene and I are going to go to Hobby Lobby. I CAN'T wait. I don't know why I love that damn store so much. I am also taking the car in. I don't feel like it though since I think they're going to tell me nothing is wrong (again) which will make it a waste of my time, but I guess it's good to document it for if the sucker blows up on me or something. James wants to once again trade it in (trial #4) I am not optimistic about it and he is mad. But after 4 attempts why would I even dream that someone is going to take the car and pay the rest of our current loan without tacking 95% of the balance onto the new loan. I don't want to be upside down on another loan. I'd rather just pay this car off (even if we don have 2 more years) Yes that's right we have the crappiest most expensive loan ever, but when you need a car you take what you can get.

So anyway, I'll stop rambling now.

bleary eyed

I didn't get to bed until 12:30 because I had to pick up J. I probably fell alseep at 1am. Usually J opens on Tuesdays and I have to get up at 6:30 (how I function on so little sleep is beyond me) All things as usual I got up and got me and the boy dressed. I woke J up and he looks at me and says........ I don't work today. ASSHOLE. A whole hour wasted!

Damn car

My car cut off SIX times this morning. During a 10 minute drive!

A couple of months ago it did the same thing and they had to adjust it's idle. (proper use of the word?) So last week it cut off a few times too. I told them about it when they checked my fuel gage, but found nothing wrong. (all he did was test drive it) It doesn't cut off all the time and it's just my luck that it didn't happen while they had it. But I am taking it back in. I am tired of them fixing the same problem two and three times. It should be fixed properly the first damn time.


So in other news, Karate went OK. James did have an episode but recovered. He ran into one of the other boys and refused to say excuse me or sorry. So I told him he couldn't wear his belt until he at least acknowledged that he did something wrong. I don't care if he isn't sorry but I will not allow him to be rude and say nothing. Eventually he said it and he got to wear his belt. We had NO girls in class today and ALL the boys were a bit silly.

I am waiting for Seventh Heaven and Related to come on. I am so mad that the Oscar's were on last night. It's totally not my cup of tea. I didn't watch and I don't care who won or who wore an ugly dress. All I wanted was to curl up next to James and watch Grey's Anatomy. :(

Guess I better go get comfy!

I'm over the blah's for now

But I am still thinking of my friend. So many thoughts ran through my head, but mostly I just want to help her. There is nothing I can do. This guy has her wrapped around his finger. I would gladly let her and her son stay here. I would gladly deal with two children, just to make sure she was ok and that her baby had a better chance of staying in her womb a little longer. but that is not an option. I talked to James about it and he knows how I feel about her, and would never tell me that she couldn't stay here. But the fiance is not going to allow that because who would take care of his other 4 kids? And what happens after the baby is born? There is no telling how long she could be in the NICU, which means a longer stay for my friend. The whole situation sucks and then of course there's my feelings of frustration over the fact that I am TTC yet still have to be the kind, caring friend.

Wishes

Sometimes you say something in haste. You spit out a single phrase that will make you feel guilty the rest of your life. Sometimes you say "I WISH......" before you even have time to think about what you're REALLY saying.

My best friend who wished she would miscarry is now 22 weeks pregnant and VERY high risk. Her last pregnancy really should have been her last according to her dr. At 22 weeks her cervix is already thinning and she is supposed to be on bed rest. But she has 5 kids (only one biological) to take care of and no one to help her during the day. The baby has moved and kicked and now BF is sad at the thought of losing her. That's right. She was given the american dream. A boy and now a girl. One she previously wished away.

It's sad.

Boredom

I am ALWAYS bored. Why is this? I could produce a list but that won't change the fact that I am bored.

I am also getting dissatisfied with everything around me. It's usually in the spring that I tend to get nutty. I am incredibly sick of this little, boring apartment. I am tired of living in apartments, period. I am tired of off white walls and dirty beige carpet. I am tired of bedrooms that are too small and bathrooms that are poorly laid out. Hmmm that's a list I am willing to continue. I am tired of my furniture and my clothes. I am tired of having one car. I am tired of J's new job. I am tired of Karate. I am tired of myself. I thought maybe the new shower curtain would kill the blah's but so far it hasn't. . . . . . . . . .

Tote Bags For AJ

Thank God for small miracles

James behaved during class. He got a little silly towards the end but Sat. classes are 45 minutes instead of 30.

We came home, had lunch, took a nap, and then went to the mall. I bought two shirts from Target but nothing else really caught my eye.

My dad bought my sis a new digitak camera, so now I no longer feel guilty about him buying mine. He bought it because she and my other sister are going to Germany in May. I think I have already mentioned that I am completely jealous and maybe even a little mad that I can't go with them. I hate James new job. If he were still at Friday's I would be able to go(since he got 5 wks PTO). As it stands now we might not even be able to take the one week of vacation he does get. We were planning on going to Ohio in May (before germany) but now the district manager has blacked out the next six months, even though James put in for the vacation 3 months ago. Talk about MAD! I hope James can find a new job, I REALLY hate this one.

Enough ranting. Last night I found a cute shower curtain on clearance for $2.50! Target has like 3 aisles of bed/bath clearance stuff!

My mom got her pillows today and LOVES them. I didn't think they'd get there so soon, but am glad they arrived undamaged. Everyone was impressed by them, which makes me happy, lol.

My house is back to being a mess, so I guess I ought to clean now.

Now I really feel like an ass

The reason I said the HR woman left no message was because my phone didn't beep, blink or show the icon as usual. She hadn't called me back as of 4:30 and for some reason I decided to check my voice-mail anyway. WHATTAYA KNOW? She left a damn message. I wasted all day because of my damn stupid phone, madddddd! So I called and she was still there. GREAT! She was very enthusiastic. She told me of a couple of openings but all were part time. They require a six month commitment to a branch and she was hesitant to put me in one of these openings because she was SURE she had some FT positions available soon. She is holding my application until something comes up. And if not I can always take one of the PT branches for six months and move from there. I did not get the feeling that she was brushing me off, in fact quite the opposite, so I will happily wait a few more months if it means a better position.

We have Karate this morning and I am already dreading it. I am crossing my fingers that J won't be a brat. I put him to bed early and he has already had breakfast. We have discussed that he will not be allowed to take in any toys, since that is usually why he flips out. When it comes time for his lesson he'd rather play, from there it escalates into he is tired and needs to sleep, and he means at karate. I'm not playing this game anymore. He seems to be in a good mood so I am keeping my fingers crossed.

busy busy busy

but not really.....

The bank thing yesterday???? Just filling out an application and taking a personality test. DAMN! I was hoping for an interview. HR said it'll take about a week for a call back, but they called me this morning. NO MESSAGE and NO EMAIL. I am wondering if they really meant to call. James told me to call her and leave a message. So I did, but I don't feel good about doing that (remember I may be a smart ass but I am also shy and reserved.) I just said that if she didn't call in error that I was home and available to take her call. We'll see, I could really use this job.

I went to Hobby Lobby today. I was so excited that I could have rolled around on the floor (little J too) It is MUCH bigger then the one in gulfport (and that was one BIG) but the fabric section is MUCH smaller. Not that I care too much about that. I bought two new prints (1/2 off) and I am waiting for the frames (poster ones) to go on sale next week. I LOVE HOBBY LOBBY! I noticed a book at the checkout written by the founder. I am interested in reading it, but not paying a fortune ;)

It's a gorgeous day. It has been all week. Wednesday James was off but had some things to do and the same for me yesterday. We were all ready to go to the zoo when I remembered I had a car appt. The gas gauge was being screwy again and guess what? They had to replace it AGAIN. It just happened a few months ago, weird.

Besides that not much going on. The weather is fabulous and I think I am gonna start taking J to the beach after school so that I can get some color. I am also signing him up for swim lessons at UNF. The campus is a block away from our house which is fantastic.

Time for lunch. And little J is nagging me, lol!