All is well.

I have lost 8 pounds which for my situation is not concerning. Two weeks ago when I was weighed I was down 4 but the nurse was a dummy and said I read the scale wrong. Ummmm it's pretty straight forward. So when I went on Wednesday I was down another four. I had a different nurse and she actually read it with me and yes I was right the first time. Losing 8 pounds over 4 weeks is a lot different then losing it over two. But again, it's no big deal. I am ecstatic since it's less weight to lose after the baby. The reg ob said with the weight loss I have gained 15 pounds and I shouldn't gain anymore. My G.D. is still diet controllable and the difference in food is why I lost the weight. I only have to check my sugars twice a day now, down from four. At my first visit the HR ob said I have too much fluid and after researching it a bit more I found that having too much is a bad thing. For that reason they starting seeing me four weeks earlier then they would have normally. At every visit I am put on the fetal monitor and I have an ultrasound done. So far everything is fine with the tests.

I can't tell you how glad I am that my insurance is an HMO. I have no idea how we would afford it otherwise.

We still haven't chosen s definite name. It seems we change our minds every week!

Work is starting to wear me out. It mentally exhausts me and I even begged the HR OB to put me on leave. She laughed and said there was no reason. Of course that's terrific but man I could use a break from that place. My replacement comes soon and I don't get a good vibe. Six more weeks and it's not my job anymore so I guess it's not that bad. I don't think I will go back, even part time, but I am still undecided. I am staying home until summer is over and then we'll figure it out.

Little J and I went to look at Christmas lights last night. I found an awesome subdivision on my way home from a late night at work and nearly every house was decorated. It was fantastic. We haven't ever really went out before so it was nice and nostalgic, well except that it was eighty degrees.

We have also been making tons of ornaments and crafts. Our dining room looks like a glitter factory exploded in it. We've been to Joann and HobLob every weekend. It's fun and we're making new traditions. I let little J decorate the tree this year. It took every ounce of my self control not to take over. I always have matching ornaments and none of the kiddie stuff. All that changed this year when we couldn't find the base for J's tree. I have to admit the tree looks great and I should have let him help me decorate a long time ago.

speak of the devil, the kid wants the computer......

It seems I have fallen off the face of the Earth

So I guess I have.

Here goes:

I am as big as a house and I tire easily. We moved our computer upstairs when we had the baby shower and it's not on my dresser. I have to sit on my bed to use it and I get uncomfortable fast!


All is well. My fam flew in to host our shower this month and it was awesome. We had a nice quiet shower and I loved every minute less my overbearing mother. Darlene, St Augustine wasn't too bad.......

Everything is going well except I have Gestaional Diabetes. I was just diagnosed two weeks ago but so far it is diet controllable. Did anyone else know that a smoothie can have 80 or more carbs in one serving? After speaking to the nutrionist I found out that is HALF of what my daily intake would be. YIKES. I have cut out the sugar and am limitng the type of carbs and when I eat them. So far so good. The OB said everything appears normal and my weight gain and belly size is fine. I do have to see a high risk ob now. My first appt is next week. I only have two more months but I will be seen at each office for the duration.

We still haven't decided on a name but we're close.

That's about it. I will post pictures since Jamie was dying to see some, but I have to get them from the fam first!

This is not a good thing.

I am an ice eater. Always have been. I guess it's a sign of anemia, but my iron's OK . ANYWAY.... I went to get a soda from the Publix deli today. The ice was AWESOME. Unless you enjoy ice you can't possibly understand my explanation why so I won;t bother. But it's damn good ice. I got the big gulp size. I am glad I didn't find this little treasure sooner and I will try my best to forget. But I did just dump the rest of it on the floor, so somebody is looking out for me :)


James has pink eye. It's a first for us. I got home from work last night and noticed his eye was crusty. I asked him if he had just woken up, no. I asked him if anyone at school had "pink" eyes, YES. A kid at his table stayed the whole day. NO ONE at school noticed this child's eye. Thanks bunches.

It's in the early super contagious stage so there is a lot of eye de-gooping, hand washing, and Germ-X. We were supposed to go the farm today but decided not to be butt holes and pass it around. We were supposed to go with a friend to a Fall Festival tomorrow but it seems to be spreading to his other eye now. Although it's no bother to him I just can't take him out. I was going to take him to Urgi-care today but with my new insurance it costs 2x a Dr visit. I figured it wouldn't make much difference between now and Monday so I am going to take him to the Dr then. I want to be sure it's safe to send him to school. All the info I read said he should be fine after 3-5days. Monday will be day 3 so I am being cautious. He's completely bummed about missing out on everything and really doesn't understand why he can't go anywhere.

I am pretty big and uncomfortable these days. Darn short torso..... But everything is going well. The Dr visits are wonderfully short. When we had James we would be in the office all day just waiting to be seen. They were always way off schedule. This time around I am in there for all of thirty minutes and on my way. Next appt is my 2nd glucose test. FUN. I am almost to the twice a month visits. How time flies. I can't believe it's been seven months!!!!

Still no name. It will be Joshua or Michael I think.

It's a FORD Edge by the way......

THIS POST CONTAINS INFO ON CLEANING. Not interested? Me either.....

BEFORE YOU SKIP IT THOUGH I NEED HELP. Whenever I clean the tile floor it looks worse then I started. It leaves this funny film and you can see footprints. Any ideas? A lot of things around here were not done well and I am so glad that I am not the homeowner, I'd be really angry.....

So I dropped J off at school, stopped by Target for cleaning supplies and here I am.

I had every intention of cleaning the house top to bottom today. But as we all know that never works out for me. I have had moments where I really could have laid down and taken a nap but I sucked it up and carried on. It's not that I am tired, just lazy. I cleaned, dusted, and vacuumed the living room. Now it's time to tackle the kitchen which looks like a twister blew threw it. I have one half ready to wipe down but dishes are overflowing the double sink. Strange since J did a load yesterday morning. RIDICULOUS! Dishes and clothes seem never ending.

In other cleaning news Scrubbing Bubbles revamped the toilet wipes. I spent a good ten minutes looking for them, being pissed off that they didn't have any, and then glad to find the "new easy to use canister." I am addicted to them. Especially with two boys in the house. Wipe - toss - flush. So nice!

MY NEW FAVORITES:
1. I bought a new can of Pledge and it had one of those dusters included. I love it.There was even a coupon for a free refill. Maybe I will dust more often now.
2. Fantastik Clean and Shine. I use it on EVERYTHING. Even the stainless. It's the best and has a nice smell. Not to mention it's under $2!


DONE WITH THE CLEANING STUFF----

I got the first gifts for the baby yesterday. Mom got me a car seat and the playpen I wanted. I registered for the Fisher Price Rain forest collection. It's so cute.


FAT CAT:


J'S TOOTH:

2x+1day=ranting

So you would think if you left half a chicken on the counter the cat would eat it right? NOPE! My lovely little bastard of a cat decided to tear into a bag of cat food. bag and food everywhere. THANKS.

: )

This is our new car.





It's lovely. We traded in the Cadillac and kept the KIA. Reasons?
1. The KIA will be paid off in a couple months
2. The KIA still has 40k miles/4years left on the warranty, the Cadillac had none.

I will not be driving it. Yeah even with the baby. Reasons for that?
1. The car is big and I just don't feel as comfortable driving it.
2. J REFUSES to drive my car.

As the salesman was trying to sell me on it I had to bite my tongue several times and smile. I have no idea why he felt I needed to approve but it was driving me crazy. I really didn't care what J came home with and I didn't want to go.


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We pulled J's tooth on wed night. He looks super cute! He cried when he tasted the blood, but got over it pretty quickly. School is a little better, but I have to have a conference with his teacher. She gives us no info on what's going on when he has a bad day, so if J's side of the story is correct she is punishing him for no reason. I want to believe that's not true and that he really is misbehaving but if I can't get feedback from her what am I supposed to do? The last couple of issues have not been temper tantrums.


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I officially look pregnant and we can feel the little guy moving. He still has no name. Everything is normal so far. I can't believe it's been six months!!


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I am off on Monday. J has school. I don't know what I will do with my free time!

HOLY COW! I CAN'T WAIT!!!!!

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----If only I could take time off of work, I would. And it would be totally worth it!!!

so what do you do when your precious six year old is throwing temper tantrums at school again. Well if your me you do a few things. First you burst into tears over the stress of doing it all over again. Second you question your ability as a parent. Third you feel like banging your head against a wall because you have no new solutions for the problem. I exhausted all possibilities last school year. This years teacher isn't as accepting and expects him to be able to control his temper. I don't blame her. I just wish someone could wave a magic wand over his head and make him perfect...... His teacher called me Friday afternoon. Of course I wasn't able to answer the phone as I was at work. I am going to send a note telling her to please call me at work to discuss the problem. Hopefully she will have some new suggestions. His kindergarten teacher sees him once a week to make sure he's staying on track.

James' answer is to be stern, loud and intimidating. All that does is upset the kid even more and then he gets all choked up which in turn makes James even more angry and it's just a mess. I agree that talking isn't helping but neither is yelling. I am sure that Little doesn't start the day saying "Gee if I get mad I am going to throw a fit" and I am sure that as he is throwing the fit he is not mature enough to calm himself down. Of course he realizes the mess he has gotten himself into once it's over.

I don't know what to do now anymore than I did last school year.

And the winner is....

No girl....

Yes I was very sad. Yes I burst into tears in the doctors office. Yes I felt awful about it afterward.

I am making the adjustment. Not that there's anything wrong with having another boy. It's just dealing with knowing there will never be a little girl.......

This is what we have so far for first names:

Joshua**
Jacob*
Jonathan*
Andrew*
Phillip***
Michael**

*-Me
**-James
***Mom

His middle name will be Gregory, after my father and like the other four grandsons. Now it's just agreeing on something!!!

Update

We had a great vacation. We spent two days at busch gardens and just hung out the rest of the time.

JAMIE: No belly shots. Can't tell that I am pregnant, lol. I could just be overweight ;)

We find out that it's a girl (yeah I want a girl) next friday. YAY!

James' 2nd week of 1st grade started without a hitch. He likes his new teacher and the troublemakers from last year are not in his class, thank goodness! He has his fist loose tooth. How exciting. We wiggle it (well I do) every night. He is very food sensitive right now, which is funny.

And that's all for now.

a little news here and there!

VACATION. Fantastic!

Big plans to do nothing. Busch Gardens wed and thurs. School orientation friday. Which by the way Jamie. We did not have to register J. It seems that I was misinformed. After Jamie's post I was in a panic and asked the wrong person. So I went all the way to school on my lunch break (not far except for when it's a wasted trip) and found that he's all set.

Saw the baby dr. last week. all is well. Heard the heartbeat. very excited about that. I was nervous but now I'm fine. next month is the BIG one. so far all tests are fine. I was surprised at how many "genetic" tests they did. Backwoods Mississippi is completly different.

BIG baby shower is planned for November. My sister is very excited to host it. Anyone want to fly to florida for it?

it is hotter then hell down here. So hot that I could cry. so hot that it doesn't matter that the a/c is on full blast. SICK! hopefully i don't melt!

So here's a picture of the new baby

Isn't he cute??? Yeah I fooled ya. I found 5 babies at a factory by J's daycare. Someone was feeding them but I figured a home and getting "fixed" was the best option for them. I got the cutest one. The rest were black and white and the girls at work each took one home. James is not to keen about it and told me I have to get rid of him. But that was friday night and so far he hasn't mentioned it again. And when I woke up this morning the little guy was in the house (in his cage) and his extra bed was by the couch. Sketchy. I think we'll be keeping him. We (j) named him little tiny. So now Tiny is called big tiny. an oxymoron if ever I heard one! :)

My last appt was a LONG one. I met with the nurse, the dr and with the financial rep. Everyone was very nice. I started with the nurse who had me do an early glucose test because J was so huge. She was amazed at my ability to down the syrup, I was amazed that most people "sip" it. Gross. She asked all the standard questions and then went over hospital info with me. She asked if I wanted another c-section, I'm not sure. The dr was very nice and much better then the last one. Very upbeat and positive. She asked more questions and then did another ultrasound. Yeah they are ultrasound ahololics. They just use one of the small portables and I don't get billed for it. After all of that she sent me over to talk billing and be done when realized they hadn't done the labs. Thank goodness. I would not have wanted to sit around another afternoon for the glucose test to be done. I don't know how it slipped everyones mind that I needed my blood drawn. So I got that handled and was on my way. I have an appt next week to have a "real" ultrasound and then I get to start the regular monthly appts.

soooo.

J has a bully at daycare. Bully spit in his face today. I told J to slap him if he does it again. Yeah close your open mouths. I don't give a shit who you are. If you spit in someone's face you deserve the back of someone's hand. And if I am there it will be mine. Name calling is one thing. Spit is disgusting and uncalled for. Looks like I will be talking to the director tomorrow. (not the first problem with the brat but first spitting episode)


In other news....

All is well. My family came for the 4th. Sis that didn't know found out I pregnant and proceeded to tell EVERYONE. Well at least I don't have to do it.

I have a dr's. appt tomorrow and that begins my monthly visits. I have had no issues so far so it looks the dr's caution was unwarranted. I will see my new dr. tomorrow. It's just going to be the routine exam/labs and an appt with the "financial dept" Yep they need my money ;) I have an HMO exactly for this. I knew when got ins through work that I would either be pg or trying and PPO plans don't cover much.

Aaahhh J wants oranges. gotta run.

Just remember all is well and we're still alive. :)

all is well

I had a 5 day vacation from work and I don't want to go back tomorrow.

All is well. We have been living at the pool. I have a really bad sunburn so I decided to sit in the shade yesterday. As we were getting ready to go I got a little to close to the edge and the next thing I know I am at the bottom of the pool. Yeah I fell in the pool. With all our stuff. I am so glad we were the only two there and that I didn't smack my head or anything, since J wouldn't have been able to save me from my clumsy self. I had to go get a new phone. They guy tried to get me to upgrade and renew my contract but I still had a phone lying around. I don't want to renew my contract just to get a new phone.

It looks like we'll be heading down shortly. It was stormy last night but it has cleared for now and J will DIE if he can't go to the pool. ;)

daycare, it's crap

OMG the cat just deleted my whole entry. DAMN IT. I just got home and he's starved for attention. He was rubbing my keyboard and poof entry gone.

I will repost later. I don't have the patience to do it over right now. here it is in a nutshell.

I hate J's daycare teacher, she's a moron.

Pregnancy is fine and progressing perfectly. J wanted me to switch dr's but we found out that she is moving out of state and I will now see another dr in the practice.

more details

The cable was touch and go. I had it but wasn't supposed to. I think I logged on one too many times and they wised up. They cut it off but I had an appt for today so it didn't kill me too much.


So we found about that I was pregnant almost three weeks ago. The Dr had me come in twice to draw blood to make sure hormone levels were OK, they were. I had an ultrasound two weeks ago and it's so early that all we could see was the heartbeat. A little grey pulse :) I have another one this week.

James HATES the Dr. He says she has no bedside manner. She is extremely cautious and let us know that. We got a congratulations but as we walked out the door she said, "Remember it's still early." It didn't bother me. I don't believe for a minute that this will be anything other than a normal pregnancy. But it pissed James off and I understand why. But I have been seeing her for two years now and used to the way she talks.

In other news.

The plumber will be out this week. He was scheduled to come out last week but was misinformed and thought we would be paying for his visit. NO WAY. So we had to straighten that out before he came and did the work. I am just thankful we have water at all. The second bath works fine, but the water heater is set really low. No hot steamy showers for us. I was going to change the temp myself but the more I read the maual I realized it wasn't easy. I called my dad to consult, read him the manual and he agreed that I shouldn't do it.

And that is all for now!

Here it is.

1. not unpacked but totally loving it, except for the hot water we don't have in the master bath.

2. I had to clean ALL the toilets because there was pee on all THREE seats upon arrival, gross.

3. the cable company employees are dumb as dirt.

4. I think I am going to step down from my position within the next couple of months.

5. we're pregnant. just a little bit, but so far it's fine.

I'm back

and guess what.



Come on guess.

No internet till monday.

Seriously.

Is it too much to ask that J pack a damn box? I mean just one would at least calm the rage that is coursing through my veins. That butt hole has not done one thing. I came home and guess what? NOTHING. Again. Oh wait I take that back. He took the two very small wire DVD racks off the wall. But that's after I packed up his 200 DVDs. I am so tired. So very very tired. I could leave it all behind. Really, I'm serious. Now in addition to having to work full time I have to finish packing this damn apartment and then clean it. I may jump off a bridge before this is all over. Tomorrow.

WHY OH WHY

Is there always some sort of injury to my fingers when I am cleaning the stove. Really cleaning it I mean, not just wiping the surface. I don't do it often. Actually never except for when we move out and I always fuck up a finger. This time my thumb. Not sure how it happened but I jammed/pinched/slammed the sucker pretty good. YOUCH!

The house looks like hell. like it should be condemned. I look like I could kill a man who hasn't packed a single frackin box yet. Asssshole.


"Mommm, I- L-O-V-E Y-O-U!"
And then I have to spell it back.
"I- L-O-V-E Y-O-U T-O-O!"
And he just read the whole damn sentence as I typed it. Smart as a whip and very huggable.

I gotta go. Just had to take a moment to pay respect to the thumb I can no longer feel.

How Could I forget.

Kindergarten is over :(
James brought his U in conduct back up to an S and is on the all E honor roll for academics. He got a perfect attendance award for the whole year and is halfway between a C and D reading level. The boy is going to first grade!

He also starts daycare next week. I hope they are not crappy. You never know until he actually goes.

Argggg

Very pleasant week. followed by the saturday from hell. had to work last minute due to scheduling mishap. realized someone else had door key. drove all the way to her house only to find out the other girl that was working had a key. But it would have been just my luck. Had I waited to find that out she wouldn't have had it and we would have opened late. Worked until 10:30. (I was just supervising) Supervisory partner came to do the last two hours. Drove all the way to Karate. It was closed for Memorial Day. Since we haven't been in almost two weeks I was unaware of this. Come all the way home, fall asleep. Phone rings, and rings, and rings somemore. WTF? So finally I roll over and check messages. Bonnie this is ...... Security. Please call us immediately. DUMMIES left the freaking door open. Drive all the way back to work. Have to enter building in a sort of scary situation. (never know who's lurking) Plus I had little J. I had to tell security he was waiting in the car so that if something did happen they could send someone out to get him. Ran in like a scaredy cat, locked door and armed the alarm properly and RAN back out. I don't like being there alone period. Always scary. Came home. called security to tell them I arrived home. (Yeah we HAVE to do that) and went back to sleep. Just woke up. Poor kid. I promise not to sleep all day tomorrow. Besides this weekend is the big pack up.

I can't pack

WITHOUT BOXES. I have used up all the boxes except these GINORMOUS ones that J brought home from work. They'd fit about six of the kid in one. That's pretty damn big. They came in handy for the linens and the Kid's stuffed animals. But anything other then that is going to be WAY to heavy. I got some very nice boxes from work. You'd be surprised at the size of box they use to ship the supplies I order. Way to big for the actual items but perfect for packing. To bad I only get one order a week.......

J and I have come up with a solution. He is off Wed and Fri. so we will rent the truck on Wednesday and pack it up. I will spend all day Thursday cleaning, we'll sleep at his sister's and then he and the family will spend Friday unloading. He is also going to call the landlord to see if we can move in on the 31st instead. Which would be better. The place is vacant now but you never know.....

I cleaned out the fish and he is all ready to go to his new home. Which I forgot to mention! The butt hole was going to flush him ALIVE, because we didn't want to take him to the new place. Now I don't want the damn fish either but to flush him??? that's just wrong. So I asked a girl at work to take him and she agreed. Sweet girl. I am sure he will be happy with her ;)

Little J is supposed to be packing his room. You think he is? NO WAY. It was a simple task. Nothing more then picking up the toys on his floor and putting them into a box instead of his bins. Just the usual cleaning. He told me he needed a nap. He always tries to weasel his way of out it.

I am working on my 4th HUGE bag for goodwill. But you'd never know it ;) It's pretty much junk out of the closets. So it will be a lot more noticeable in the new place.

I guess I should get back to packing/cleaning. Right now I am rearranging my stack of boxes because they are getting in the way.

yeah it's been forever

Is it weird to get mail for the person that will be living in your apt soon? YEAH. I got a postcard from the furniture store thanking this person for their purchase and the saleswoman hoped she enjoys her new apartment. WEIRD. I mean I know I am leaving and such but I'm not using the new address yet. since it's NOT my address yet.

I have been packing but just like MS I am not getting far. J does not have the luxury of being gone this time so he should be helping and he's not. So if we're all crazy and last minute he can blame himself too. It seems like the more I pack the worse the house looks and it's irritating. The house looks cluttered and dirty.

We have a one day lag in the leases. I don't know what we'll do, or why we didn't think of it when we signed the new one, maybe they'll be nice enough to give us the keys a day early. And to make it even harder it's a Thursday/Friday. I swore it was during the weekend. Hell Spells. I asked for Thursday off but there is no way they will give me Friday too. I think we'll just have to keep the truck an extra day and sleep at J's sister's house. He and whoever is helping him can unload and I will just spend the weekend unpacking it all.


Kindergarten is over next week. It's killing me. I can't believe J will be on his way to first grade. I can't believe he will be six years old. I don't want him to grow up :(

Other than that nothing new is going on.

Forgive Me

But I have just not been in the blogging mood.

All is well.

I am trying to help J with his math homework and he is driving me CRAZY. I guess I won't get parent of the year this time around.

I celebrated my 26th birthday on Thursday. Holy shit I'm 26. Totally downhill from here. I said I wouldn't spend the rest of my twenties being overweight. Better get on that soon!

J took me out to dinner and bought me everything I wanted. New Cologne, new D&B purse, new straightening iron for my hair. He also took the weekend off so we could celebrate. We went to the beach on Saturday and it was fantastic. Sunday we went to St Augustine to shop and see Spiderman at the IMAX. I am not a huge spiderman fan even though I have seen all three in the theater. Seeing it on the IMAX screen was awesome.

I had a cleaning and exam today and it reminded me that I hate going to the dentist. Why do my teeth hurt so badly after a damn cleaning. I kept making a funny face at work and my coworker asked me if I had been to the dentist. I guess she makes the same face ;)

I have a mother's day brunch on Thursday. James' class is planning a big surprise.

Our lease is up here at the end of the month. We are renting a townhouse this time around and it is gorgeous and I am SO excited.

I think that's about all.....

Hi

I love my cat. He is super cute and still cuddly. Sometimes I have to throw him across the room when he starts to get all bitey and stuff. But all in all he is a super kitty and I have dubbed him my new best friend. J thinks I am nuts, but come on, the kitten meets me at the door. And he follows me everywhere. Even in the shower. I love my cat.....


Enough of the mush.


We went to Busch Gardens over the weekend and had a fantastic time. Little J rode some roller coasters. One of which I thought he would be scared of since it did a loop-d-loop. The hotel we stayed in was very comfy with a nice continental breakfast. It's actually the same one we stayed at when we went to Seagrove (like 2 years ago) and little J remembered. Sunday it monsooned in the early morning, but cleared by 11 and left us with a beautiful breezy day. Little J talked me into one of the water rides. The little kids that sat in front of us assured me that only the front seats got soaked. Who was the only one that was drenched when it was over? ME! Right in the face too. The little boy turned and said he guessed I got wetter then he thought. I had to laugh. Luckily I was smart enough to layer our clothes so we just removed the wet and put the dry back on. We rode every ride and let J play in the kid area. It was a nice mini vacation for us. I am hoping to go back soon.

Has anyone ever seen that commercial for Direct Buy. "America's #1 way to buy direct" That shit costs $3500. That's THREE THOUSAND FIVE HUNDRED DOLLARS. Sick I know. But no I didn't join. That's a helluva lot of money. (sorry that was very random)

We will be moving next month. Not sure where to yet. We have looked at a couple of nice places, now we just have to decide. This apartment is just too small and there are too many college kids living here now. And the assholes above us? I get mad just thinking about them. I had to go up there at 1:30 in the morning. ONE THIRTY! He just looked at me and said "talk to the girls, they're leaving" Ummm hello bastard it's your freaking apt. and your responsibility. I told him to shut the fuck up and came back downstairs. I would have said more but J didn't wake up when I left and god forbid they had bashed me over the head or something......

Little J is still acting up in school. I just cross my fingers that next year is better and that he doesn't get held back because of his behavior. Do they do that? And wouldn't his teacher had said something by now? (not knocking the teacher, I LOVE her) I can't believe Kindergarten is almost over. The summer camp he is going to is right down the street from work but he won't know anyone there. I don't like that but the summer camp offered by school just wasn't enough for us. They didn't serve lunch or snacks and the kids had to be picked up by 4pm.

I guess I better do some cleaning now. I have a couple loads of laundry to fold and some dishes to do. But don't I always ;)

MOM!!!

"I found an Easter egg!!!! The Easter Bunny made an egg hunt" all before 7am. Blehhhh.

I decided not to do them outside. I figured I wouldn't be able to pull myself out of bed in time. So I hid them all over the house and J had tons of fun finding them. He was also excited to discover that there was money in them. He wanted to go buy a toy and was very sad to find out that the stores are closed on Easter Sunday. J is at work ALL day so we're not doing dinner. Little J and I went outside and he rode his bike. Finally after 16 months of having it he found a burning desire to learn how to ride.

Happy Easter Everyone. I hope you all had a delicious dinner. I am craving mashed potatoes. Maybe I'll have J bring me some.

Hi

I've been super busy since I got back from vacation. All work related. But things seem to be falling into place. Except for the meetings that are scheduled with no regard to people's lives. I am sorry that I can not find someone to pick my son up from school with only a weeks notice. I am sorry that I refuse to stay if I can't. What should I do? Let J go home with the ext. day teachers????? J and I have discussed this at length. I have also confided in one person I truly trust at work. She gave me some advice but also made it clear she didn't want me to step down because of it.

I had to work today and it wasn't that bad. It wasn't really busy like the other branch was on saturdays. If we weren't skipping Karate I wouldn't really care if I had to work or not. But since it's the only day we can get there these days I am not going to do it more then the rotation requires. All my girls are in training and one started at the branch this week. She is awesome. She didn't have any experience but caught on really quick. I am so happy to have her! Two will start next month and I am not sure about the 4th. But this means I will no longer have to close friday's or do the sat shift once they all get through training. Two of them are part time and their schedule requires the friday close and Sat shift. I will be so happy once all of them are out of training.

J had a really good two weeks at school. Poor kid got a U in conduct this time around. (Which is TERRIBLE) The previous two nine weeks he got an S. But he did make the all E honor roll, for the academic portion, again!

So I talked to the family today and they weren't sure they'd be able to make it in june. I only took PTO because they were gonna come down. Oh well. I will have three extra days if they confirm they can't come.

I guess I should turn into the easter bunny now. I am gonna make an egg hunt for little J. And yes it will be outside! I don't know what's come over me. I am not at all an Eastery kind of girl. It's just no my holiday...

Ha! I just told J to get ready for bed. He told me something (short term memory is not my strong suit) and then I turned around to tell him again and he is asleep and snoring on the couch. Silly boy.

Vacation....

The look on my dad's face when James came RUNNING down the airport was priceless. When I mean run, I am talking drop the backpack and haul ass right into my dad's arms. It was a completely stereotypical airport reunion scene and it was fabulous. Of course Dad knew we were coming but James has grown in the 6 months that Dad saw him last.

Everyone was surprised. My sisters were complete assholes and wouldn't come home. I didn't want to ruin the surprise so mom had to make up some excuse as to why they had to come back. They had told her they would be home by 3pm, LIARS. They rolled in around 5 after calling repeatedly. At one point A said they were ten minutes away. They hadn't even left Cleveland which is 40 miles from here..........

We went out on Saturday night and that was awful. My old ass mother got WASTED! Wasted I tell you! It was the most embarrassing thing I have ever experienced. Both sisters said they had never seen her so bad. I wanted to choke her. I was the DD but driving my sis's stick for the first time. I stalled the first go around and my BIL looks at sis and says, "I don't think B is the best one of us to drive." This from a man who A. had about 12 beers and B. CAN'T even freakin drive a stick. Asshole...... D just snickered. Yesterday we went to the natural history museum. J loved it and took LOTS of pictures. Tomorrow we are going to the Botanical Gardens and then to my Cousin's house. Not sure what's going on Thurs. Friday we're driving 2 hours to Pittsburg, just to go to IKEA. Yeah that's how much we love it. Saturday we are going to Niagara Falls. We leave Sunday afternoon. Time flies when you plan it out like that, lol.

Vacation

It starts tomorrow and couldn't come fast enough. I'll be glad to be away from work for the next 9 days.


We had a PT Conference last night. J's teacher suggested that the temper tantrums could be because he is a full year younger then ALL his classmates. Although he is doing VERY well academically he is not yet as mature. She said that next year should be better for him. I'm crossing my fingers...... But it was nice to hear how well he's doing otherwise.


I had a meeting with my manager and let her know exactly what was driving me crazy and how we can reduce the unnecessary crap. She is totally on board. She is doing her best but the situation is not ideal for all of us. (but me especially, since it's my teller line that is understaffed.) We're working on it and hopefully it will get better.

I go in at 10 today but I had one call out. 4 tellers on a Friday. I am sure you can just imagine.......

"where does depression hurt?"

I am in the famous Bonnie black hole. I can't figure it out. So many things...... they are all eating at me. J doesn't even notice. I am at my wits end at work and I let them know that last night. I am seriously thinking about quiting. Little J has been misbehaving at school again. Our lease is up in two months and J wants to move. He thinks we can buy a house by then. I wish I was as positive and upbeat about it. The thought of it makes me nauseous and it also makes me cry. His sister just closed on a house so now I also have the jealousy to deal with. Why am I like this? Why am I not happy no matter what's happening?

I just to crawl into bed and stay there....

Soooo

I've booked a surprise trip to Ohio over spring break. How sad that you now need a passport to get back into the US from Canada. I had my heart set on it. But not for the $200 passports will set me back. Especially since they'll be used once.....

Anyway. I am SO excited to go. Haven't been in 2.5 years. Since Gramma died. Dad knows I am coming (cuz he paid) but that's because J wouldn't let me drive and he said he was pretty sure dad would say I shouldn't either, he did......


Work is OK. Not great but maybe I can see the potential. I do believe I will have to work some Saturdays while we are acquiring a staff. Umm had I known that I would not have taken the job. Seriously I wouldn't have. It's bad enough working as much as I do all week, but to carry it over. Shit that's just no good. J doesn't know yet, and he's not going to be happy about it. I can here him now "you need to quit and go to school...."

His job is going well. He already has business cards, which is funny. They must have been sure they were going to give him the position. He got more money then he expected but exactly what I wanted! That and the potential bonus has me smiling.

Nothing exciting, since we're both working too much.

What the hell have I gotten myself into?????

WORK IS AWFUL. I hate it and am ready to A.) quit or B.) demote myself and return to those who like me. It's complete anarchy and I am stuck in the middle. The "employees," all frickin 2 of em, resent the fact that I got the job. One I didn't ask for, didn't want and would gladly give up. Because of this they are stirring the pot. Both have applied for other jobs, so hopefully they'll be out of my hair soon. If not I won't be there much longer, it's just not worth it. I was warned of a lot of things, but not this.

J is officially GM. Crazy, who woulda thought???? But he doesn't want to move. Sorry Darlene..... He says the commute is crazy (I would be making it) and people drive like idiots, so he doesn't want me to have to do it. We will be moving out of this apartment, well haven't we been saying that for the last year? Who knows what will happen. I just really prefer that the kid be able to stay in his current school. I know there are no houses in our price range over here, and this is like the only affordable apartment complex.

I am listening to the neighbors. He is breaking up with his girlfriend, probably the drunk witch that vomited on my porch. She is sobbing and begging, all the while talking to her BF on the phone. Ahhhhh to be young again. LOL.

Crap I can't believe it's so late. And where did the weekend go? It sure does fly by.

J is at a friend's watching the superbowl. Is it over yet? I guess I'll get my clothes ironed. It's easier then doing it in the morning.

Policy

It's a word we are forbidden to say. I spent all day learning how to get our point across without using the term in front of our clients......

As I sat on the phone with Home Depot I heard it several times and it pissed me off just like our instructors said it would.

I needed to return an item. I called and they were going to send UPS to pick it up. Problem was they wouldn't send UPS to my house, instead they sent them to the home I had it shipped too. I told the rep that no one would be there. (friends house) she didn't care and policy dictated she couldn't have it picked up elsewhere, even though I was the one paying for the damn thing..... Well UPS wasn't able to pick it up so I called back today. The latest rep told me I was responsible for sending it out myself because their policy changed and since I'd had buyer's remorse they weren't going to pay for it. I stayed calm (new management skills showing) I politely explained that a customer shouldn't be penalized for a purchase that was made before the new policy and that already had a return approval. It's not my fault the rep wasn't aware of the change. They can obviously see that an approval was given on a specific date. I asked for her supervisor. He went ahead and did it for me but said the pick up may be denied. I told him that's TERRIBLE customer service. I understand if it was a new return and I was aware of the new policy when I made the purchase. I know ya'll know what I mean. If they don't pick up this damn food processor I am going to call anyone I can until it gets resolved. It's just a stupid situation.

Love a sale

Monday we went shopping and got little J 3 pair of jeans and a zip-up sweatshirt from old navy, for only $20. Today I went to target and got two sweaters, two polo's and one regular sweatshirt for $13. All of this is for next school year. Adding that to what we already have in the closet (more clearance) all he'll need is shorts!!!!

Work is ok. I think the first week went well. I see a few things that could really use some work but I am not the first person to say something. The hard part will be getting them to change for me, since they won't even change for the branch manager.....

J says the promotion is a sure bet, but no mention about the money yet. I have a feeling that even if he doesn't accept the offer he will still be at that store so yes DARLENE, I'll be a little bit closer to you! Fabulous!

Tomorrow is the first time we have been off together so I think we'll all go to the movies, little J wants to see Charlotte's Web. If not we'll definitely be spending some quality family time together. I feel like I haven't seen him in weeks!

Bad things happen in 3's

Do ggod things come in 3's also??? Because if they do I am ready for #3 and we all know what I want it to be. So are you wondering what #2 is??? Well J called me and told me they asked him how he felt about being GM of the store he is training at. No definate offer yet, but why would they ask if it wasn't going to happen.

the restaurant is 45 minutes from here. Houses are CHEAP over there, but I am not sure how schooling is. If he does accept the promotion we will move. I'm not sure what I will do about the bank. I have to stay in my current position(new one) for 6 months before I can post again.

Bedtime for little boys. I have to be in early so I'll start my ironing now.....

Oh the pressure.......

It's been such a crazy week for me. I have been offered a promotion at work. It wasn't so much that I was asked but told this is what is going to happen. I didn't see much room to decline, as I don't want to get on anyone's bad side. I was asked to be discreet until we announce it to my current team on Tuesday. My last day. I think that's stupid, they should be able to know ahead of time, but that's how it works. I am sure this promotion will be a good thing, but I am nervous about the extra time I will have to spend at work. I have a family and I will not stay there al night like others do. If it becomes a conflict I will be stepping down. My mentor told me to give it six months before I decide if I think it was the right choice. It's not MUCH more money then I make right now, but A LOT more responsibility. And of course I'm nervous. I have never managed anyone and I am really going to have to watch my tone of voice. I have a lot of good qualities for this position, but I really never thought it would be offered because of my lack of patience. I guess people who don't work with me daily don't see that.


We have Karate this morning and then some errands to run. Little j had a 4 day weekend and I have 3. J was off yesterday so they went to the movies. I don't know what we'll do over the weekend but I'm gonna try to find something fun.

This just in....

We've named him Dallas. (J is a cowboy's fan) I think it's suits his wild butt! :) He is sooo sweet just still kitten crazy......

quite a scare

Last night we lost kitty. All the doors were shut so he could only be in the living room. We looked EVERYWHERE (all rooms) and could not find him. I got nervous and thought maybe he ran out the door while J was taking out the trash. I went outside and did my best to look for him, but it was dark, he's little and something bit my ankle.

We were all upset (surprising that J was too) but decided we'd just have to wait and see. Eventually the little jerk comes running out. He came out from under the table, the same one we moved and looked under. I couldn't figure it out until he went under again. He can get into the drawer from underneath and that's where he was all night.

We are a very happy family now that he's ok.

Merry Christmas

I got a belated Christmas Gift today. (maybe because I took back all the other ones)
We haven't named him yet. Any Ideas?

Here's a few things

Splenda is the best stuff on earth. (even if it might kill me later)
I just made koolaid with it and it tastes just fine. Though it defeats my trying to be cheap and buy Kool-aid because Splenda is pricey. Gotta love $3 Kool-aid!

I just took down all the xmas decor except for the tree. I am leaving that for J since I tried but couldn't figure it out. It's almost as bad as a pack n play, in terms of disassembly. The house is no longer cramped, not that it was spacious to begin with!

School can not start fast enough. Poor J is bored out of his mind. Who ever thought this much time off was a good idea? I think I need to infiltrate the school board.

We stayed home fore new year's as usual. This year I actually stayed awake the whole time. But I went to bed as soon as the ball dropped and I drank a glass of champange. * a very small glass because I don't like it (or most alcohol)

Dinner tonight is spaghetti. One of my specialties, lol. I am not sure J will be thrilled about it. I have a taste for chili but that's definitely a NO from him....