MOM!!!

"I found an Easter egg!!!! The Easter Bunny made an egg hunt" all before 7am. Blehhhh.

I decided not to do them outside. I figured I wouldn't be able to pull myself out of bed in time. So I hid them all over the house and J had tons of fun finding them. He was also excited to discover that there was money in them. He wanted to go buy a toy and was very sad to find out that the stores are closed on Easter Sunday. J is at work ALL day so we're not doing dinner. Little J and I went outside and he rode his bike. Finally after 16 months of having it he found a burning desire to learn how to ride.

Happy Easter Everyone. I hope you all had a delicious dinner. I am craving mashed potatoes. Maybe I'll have J bring me some.

Hi

I've been super busy since I got back from vacation. All work related. But things seem to be falling into place. Except for the meetings that are scheduled with no regard to people's lives. I am sorry that I can not find someone to pick my son up from school with only a weeks notice. I am sorry that I refuse to stay if I can't. What should I do? Let J go home with the ext. day teachers????? J and I have discussed this at length. I have also confided in one person I truly trust at work. She gave me some advice but also made it clear she didn't want me to step down because of it.

I had to work today and it wasn't that bad. It wasn't really busy like the other branch was on saturdays. If we weren't skipping Karate I wouldn't really care if I had to work or not. But since it's the only day we can get there these days I am not going to do it more then the rotation requires. All my girls are in training and one started at the branch this week. She is awesome. She didn't have any experience but caught on really quick. I am so happy to have her! Two will start next month and I am not sure about the 4th. But this means I will no longer have to close friday's or do the sat shift once they all get through training. Two of them are part time and their schedule requires the friday close and Sat shift. I will be so happy once all of them are out of training.

J had a really good two weeks at school. Poor kid got a U in conduct this time around. (Which is TERRIBLE) The previous two nine weeks he got an S. But he did make the all E honor roll, for the academic portion, again!

So I talked to the family today and they weren't sure they'd be able to make it in june. I only took PTO because they were gonna come down. Oh well. I will have three extra days if they confirm they can't come.

I guess I should turn into the easter bunny now. I am gonna make an egg hunt for little J. And yes it will be outside! I don't know what's come over me. I am not at all an Eastery kind of girl. It's just no my holiday...

Ha! I just told J to get ready for bed. He told me something (short term memory is not my strong suit) and then I turned around to tell him again and he is asleep and snoring on the couch. Silly boy.

Vacation....

The look on my dad's face when James came RUNNING down the airport was priceless. When I mean run, I am talking drop the backpack and haul ass right into my dad's arms. It was a completely stereotypical airport reunion scene and it was fabulous. Of course Dad knew we were coming but James has grown in the 6 months that Dad saw him last.

Everyone was surprised. My sisters were complete assholes and wouldn't come home. I didn't want to ruin the surprise so mom had to make up some excuse as to why they had to come back. They had told her they would be home by 3pm, LIARS. They rolled in around 5 after calling repeatedly. At one point A said they were ten minutes away. They hadn't even left Cleveland which is 40 miles from here..........

We went out on Saturday night and that was awful. My old ass mother got WASTED! Wasted I tell you! It was the most embarrassing thing I have ever experienced. Both sisters said they had never seen her so bad. I wanted to choke her. I was the DD but driving my sis's stick for the first time. I stalled the first go around and my BIL looks at sis and says, "I don't think B is the best one of us to drive." This from a man who A. had about 12 beers and B. CAN'T even freakin drive a stick. Asshole...... D just snickered. Yesterday we went to the natural history museum. J loved it and took LOTS of pictures. Tomorrow we are going to the Botanical Gardens and then to my Cousin's house. Not sure what's going on Thurs. Friday we're driving 2 hours to Pittsburg, just to go to IKEA. Yeah that's how much we love it. Saturday we are going to Niagara Falls. We leave Sunday afternoon. Time flies when you plan it out like that, lol.

Vacation

It starts tomorrow and couldn't come fast enough. I'll be glad to be away from work for the next 9 days.


We had a PT Conference last night. J's teacher suggested that the temper tantrums could be because he is a full year younger then ALL his classmates. Although he is doing VERY well academically he is not yet as mature. She said that next year should be better for him. I'm crossing my fingers...... But it was nice to hear how well he's doing otherwise.


I had a meeting with my manager and let her know exactly what was driving me crazy and how we can reduce the unnecessary crap. She is totally on board. She is doing her best but the situation is not ideal for all of us. (but me especially, since it's my teller line that is understaffed.) We're working on it and hopefully it will get better.

I go in at 10 today but I had one call out. 4 tellers on a Friday. I am sure you can just imagine.......

"where does depression hurt?"

I am in the famous Bonnie black hole. I can't figure it out. So many things...... they are all eating at me. J doesn't even notice. I am at my wits end at work and I let them know that last night. I am seriously thinking about quiting. Little J has been misbehaving at school again. Our lease is up in two months and J wants to move. He thinks we can buy a house by then. I wish I was as positive and upbeat about it. The thought of it makes me nauseous and it also makes me cry. His sister just closed on a house so now I also have the jealousy to deal with. Why am I like this? Why am I not happy no matter what's happening?

I just to crawl into bed and stay there....